My knee is really bothering me today... As Brian said, "so much for a last chance workout :)" I did get in a walk this morning, but I think that's going to be about it. Hopefully resting it today will go a long way toward getting it better. Pre knee surgery, I wouldn't have thought twice about a tweak, but every since...it scares the BeJesus out of me.
What are you doing for yourself today?
3:15 Today has gotten really hard...Junior vomited all morning, and he hasn't eaten today. Now, mind you, this is a dog that will eat dog shit, if he can get away w/ it....he's been sick before, but he's never completely turned away from food. Without eating, he's unable to take his seizure meds and pain meds... The poor guy just doesn't have energy today. This kinda came out of nowhere. He hadn't been throwing up. It's breaking my heart. Being the overthinker that I am...I always automatically think the worst. The vet has thought that he's had cancer for a while now, so I think maybe it's related to that. Brian thinks maybe he just got into something. Hopefully Brian's right. Junior's my boy... So, I'm crying as I write this, and I'm upset that I have to leave the house for a few hours for Ryne's football practice. Fuck. I hate not knowing anyone here. I wish there was someone who could take him. Anyway, as the day goes on, and Junior continues to not eat or drink, all I can think about is eating...eating everything bad for me... I'm so weak. I hate myself sometimes. Sorry to be so f'ing dramatic, but I decided from the begining that I would never sugar coat my thoughts and run away from honesty. Please say a little prayer for Junior. Hopefully this is just some sort of 24 hour thing. I can't handle anything more than that. He's such a good, loving boy. He doesn't deserve to be sick like this.
8:10 Banana and green grapes
11:00 Wheat toast with boiled egg white, sea salt and pepper & Diet 7UP
11:30 Vegan choc/oatmeal/pb cookie
1:00 Bowl of cauliflower soup (see recipe)
2:30 Another cookie
6:30 3 slices of pizza (b/o and tomato)
9:30 1 hour walk