Well, tomorrow I hit the 'ol Wii fit board for a weigh in.  Anyone know if it's as solid as a scale would be?  I used it for me first weigh in, but I'm nervous it's not as consistent as a scale would be.  We shall see!
My knee is really bothering me today...  As Brian said, "so much for a last chance workout :)"  I did get in a walk this morning, but I think that's going to be about it.  Hopefully resting it today will go a long way toward getting it better.  Pre knee surgery, I wouldn't have thought twice about a tweak, but every since...it scares the BeJesus out of me.

What are you doing for yourself today?

3:15  Today has gotten really hard...Junior vomited all morning, and he hasn't eaten today.  Now, mind you, this is a dog that will eat dog shit, if he can get away w/ it....he's been sick before, but he's never completely turned away from food.  Without eating, he's unable to take his seizure meds and pain meds...  The poor guy just doesn't have energy today.  This kinda came out of nowhere.  He hadn't been throwing up.  It's breaking my heart.  Being the overthinker that I am...I always automatically think the worst.  The vet has thought that he's had cancer for a while now, so I think maybe it's related to that.  Brian thinks maybe he just got into something.  Hopefully Brian's right.  Junior's my boy...  So, I'm crying as I write this, and I'm upset that I have to leave the house for a few hours for Ryne's football practice.  Fuck.  I hate not knowing anyone here.  I wish there was someone who could take him.  Anyway, as the day goes on, and Junior continues to not eat or drink, all I can think about is eating...eating everything bad for me...  I'm so weak.  I hate myself sometimes.  Sorry to be so f'ing dramatic, but I decided from the begining that I would never sugar coat my thoughts and run away from honesty.  Please say a little prayer for Junior.  Hopefully this is just some sort of 24 hour thing.  I can't handle anything more than that.  He's such a good, loving boy.  He doesn't deserve to be sick like this.

Food:
8:10  Banana and green grapes
11:00  Wheat toast with boiled egg white, sea salt and pepper & Diet 7UP
11:30  Vegan choc/oatmeal/pb cookie
1:00  Bowl of cauliflower soup (see recipe)
2:30  Another cookie
6:30  3 slices of pizza (b/o and tomato)

Exercise:
9:30  1 hour walk

Man, it's been a busy day so far.  Awesome!  Brian was super sweet and got the boys ready for school this morning (he's working nights this week).  This gave me a little extra time to sleep, but I still got up pretty early, anyway.  I made us smoothies this morning, and we started the day running ; )
We went for a nice walk this morning, before I came home, made B lunch, and then started some cauliflower soup.  My cousin Mel called while I was doing the soup.  It's always so nice to talk to her.  When the soup was done, I did the BL workout, and then did some cleaning.  I just got home from picking the boys up from school, and I need to squeeze more cleaning in before taking Ryne to football practice.  Hey, when you have no friends in a new place, you love these busy days.  It helps keep my mind off of how much I don't think I like it out here :)

7:45  Damn...tweaked my knee today playing soccer w/ Cal.  I guess I should've quit after I had a little PIP.  It must've been God's way to tell me to knock it off.  Hope the knee is okay tomorrow...it's the bad one.

How's your day?  What have you done to make yourself feel good today?

Food:
8:10  Choc smoothie (see recipe)
11:30  Thin whole wheat bagel w/ little bit of pb
1:10  Big bowl of cauliflower soup  (see recipe)  Although I didn't have any carrots, so I used 1/2 a large zuchini instead, and I doubled up the kale.
6:25  2 scrambled eggs (soy milk, sea salt, and a trace amount of cheese...I'd used it up, as the boys were eating them, too), 3 Morning Star Farms "sausage links," and a slice a toast (whole wheat w/ apple jelly).  It all tasted really good, but it def wasn't all that healthy.  It's missing fruits and veggies!  I went way too long in between eating today.  No good ever comes of that.

Exercise:
9:00  Took Junior for 1/3 mile walk, and then walked for an hour
12:30  37 min workout on the BL on the Wii.
4:00  25 mins soccer w/ Cal

Another terrible night of sleep, but I got my ass going today.  Brian ended up being home most of the day.  It was nice to be able to get out and walk with him.  In a new town, we don't get much alone time.  The boys are always with us.
The walk was great, and the workout (BL) was even better!  I feel really inspired today.
I also rec'd a call from the principal at Cal's new school.  She's going to use the IEP that was done at his last school (end of last year).  This is great news, as it has most all of the services that Cal needs written into it.  (Yes, I ended a sentence w/ "it."  I can do that.  It's my site  ; )  Anyway, I'll be meeting w/ his teacher, speech therapist, occupational therapist, aid, and pricipal next week to come up with a game plan for Cal.  What a relief.  I really feel like we chose the right school for the boys.

 8:00  Wowee!  Am I sore!  The sign of a good day  ; )

Food:
8:30  Choc smoothie (see recipe)
12:30  Can of Amy's Organic Minnestrone soup
1:05  Some raw carrots w/ 75 cals worth of hummus
2:45  lots of raspberries and about 1 cup of honey nut cheerios w/ rice milk
6:00  Some tortilla chips and homemade guac, bean burrito (whole wheat soft shell, veggie refried beans, little brown rice, homemade guac, hot sauce), spring mix salad w/ fat free basalmic dressing and 4 green olives.
7:30  Diet 7UP and vegan choc/oatmeal/pb cookie

Exercise:
10:00  1 hour walk
11:00  35 mins full body workout w/ Bob on the BL Wii game  (actually felt a lot less uncoordinated today)!
4:00  35 mins soccer w/ Cal and a couple other little boys

I've been wanting to find a church here in Walnut that I connect with.  This morning I went to a Catholic church.  The service was nice, but I don't think it's a match for me.  There is not an Episocopal church in town, so the search continues next week.

Food:
8:30  Grapes and raspberries
11:40  Small amt of brown rice w/ soy sauce, 5 mini veggie spring rolls w/ a little orange sauce, spring mix and spinach salad w/ lite honey mustard dressing.
2:00  Diet 7Up
3:00  A few tortilla chips
3:30  Big bowl of corn pops w/ soy milk
4:30  Homemade vegan choc/oatmeal/pb cookie  (very fatening, but so good)
6:30  Leftover whole wheat pasta w/ marinara sauce, steamed brocoli, and raw carrots
7:30  Another vegan

Ryne played in his first football game today.  It was a lot of fun to watch, although it's hard for me to contain myself a lot of the time :)

8:30  banana and bowl of oatmeal w/ Stevia and brown sugar
9:00  Diet 7Up
12:45  Whole wheat english muffin w/ pb
1:30  Whole wheat english muffin w/ egg and little cheese  (I wasn't going to eat one, but I'd made them for the boys for lunch, and there was one left over...that's my excuse ;)
4:00  Herbal Mint tea
7:45  Barilla Plus pasta w/ homemade marinara sauce and homemade "unmeatballs"  (made w/ lentils, garlic, herbs, onion, brown rice, etc), spring mix and spinach salad w/ lite honey must dressing, and cucumber
Diet 7UP

Exercise:
7:00  2 mile walk

Oh, how I hate the fucking scale....It literally makes me crazy!  I go nuts if I gain, and if I lose, I always feel that it's not good enough.  So, today was no exception.  I had a Dr.'s appt. today, so I got weighed.  I wasn't happy about this, b/c I was going to wait until the 1st to weigh myself (on the Wii fit, which gave me the 213 on 7/31), and I was diligent about staying away from the scale until then.  Anyhoo, fast forward to today, according the the Dr.'s scale, I'm 205.  My heart tells me, 8 lbs in 26 days isn't bad at all, but my head screams, YOU BIG FAT FUCK, GAWD, YOU SUCK!  All I can think about are the days I didn't do so good, instead of basking in the days that I did well.  I hate this about myself.  I'll weigh myself on the 1st, and let you know what it is again, then.  Plus, I like the idea of being on the same scale.  I know I've lost, but I need to know exactly what I've lost.  Although, I'm not sure that weighing myself on the Wii fit board is better than a scale or not.  I hope it's accurate.  If I don't get the sense that it is, I'll buy a new scale.  (Since apparently I lost mine in the move.)

7:30  banana
11:45  Fish filet from McDonalds (w/ Large Diet Coke)  -I actually am not mad at myself about this.  I really wanted to go the have a big 'ol breakfast at this Country restaurant near the Dr.'s office, but as bad as a fish sandwich is, I knew it would be better than eggs and french toast.
12:45  Fruit and walnut pack from McD's   -actually really good, apples, grapes, candied walnuts w/ a little yogurt.  I do give myself points for not licking the yogurt off the lid, though.  I do miss yougurt.
4:00  Baked potato and spring mix salad w/ lite honey mustard dressing
5:00  A few bites of Ryne's movie popcorn  (Rise of the Planet of the Apes-good movie)
7:00  Med cup of fat free yogurt from Frozerts w/ fresh raspberries

Boy, last night was a terrible night for sleep!  I tried to go to bed early, around 10, since the boys started school today.  However, I tossed and turned, and then around midnight snoring started coming out of of Brian and Junior like I've never heard.  I had to move out to the couch, and was up a lot of the night.  I had to get up at 6:30 to get the boys off to school.  I got home around 8:15 and made myself lay down for a little bit.  It was much needed and much appreciated.
I did the BL workout of the Wii again.  It didn't show that I burned as many calories as yesterday, but I worked a lot harder.  I was way out of my comfort zone today.  There were a lot of positions that required being on my knees (insert your own joke here), and my left knee doesn't respond well to that.  I really need to get some sort of mat or something.  The hardwood floor and cheap little rug don't help much.  Anyway, I'm sure once a bunch of weight comes off, the knee won't hurt so much.  That's the goal, anyway!  One things for sure...I never want to have knee surgery again!
Oh yes, I also have to congratulate myself for not puking the couple of times I wanted to, during the workout.  How sad is that!  A Wii game kicked my ass...

8:15  My ass hurts!

Food:
8:15   Banana
10:30  Oatmeal w/ spoonful of Stevia and brown sugar
12:30  Bowl of tomato bisque (see recipe)
3:30  1/2 pb sandwich on wheat & a Diet 7up
6:30  Black bean patty w/ 1/2 avocado & tomato, plus spring mix salad w/ lite honey mustard dressing
7:00  Totally craving something sweet, so I took a square of dark choc.  It helped :)

Exercise:
11:30  34 mins the BL workout on the Wii

Yay, I finally went out of my work out comfort zone a bit.  I know that I'm in terrible, terrible shape aerobically.....so I've been putting off doing more than walking.  When I do something new, I feel so awkward, and non-athletic, fat going every which way...  It must be how those BL contestants feel, when they first start.  Fat comes flying out of directions, that you didn't know existed.  Anyway, I did a workout to the Biggest Loser on the Wii this morning.  Man, it felt good!  I'm very uncoordinated w/ some things, but I was getting the hang of some of it, by the end.  Jillian even gave me a couple of "Atta Girls."  I feel inspired.  I love to sweat.  Now, if I can just get more core in awesome shape, so it doesn't feel like piss is going to drip out every time I jump rope!

Food:
9:45  Breakfast: bowl full of a banana and grapes
12:30  2 bowls of tomato bisque (see recipe)
5:00  a few raw cashews--my plan was to eat more, as I'd taken them in the car w/ me, but they were kinda stale tasting.
6:45  ----way too long between food, was starving 
Dinner:  Baked potato w/ Earth Balance buttery spread, spring mix salad w/ 4 green olives and fat free basalmic vinegar dressing, plus sauteed zuchini, garlic, tomatoes, and brocoli.  Very good dinner
8:15  Chocolate Cherry Ice Cream    -if you like really sweet, you'll love this (see re

Exercise:
10:30  Took Junior for 1/3 mile walk.  Holy crap, it's HOT out there today!
11:00  Did a 37 min workout to the Biggest Loser on the Wii.  It kicks ass!

Wow.  This has been a crazy, weather day.  There has been terrible thunder, lightning, and rain since early this morning.  Our power was briefly knocked out, but all seems good now.  Hopefully it lets out later today, so I can get outside (otherwise it's the treadmill, and man alive, I hate the treadmill) and walk. 
I upgraded this site today to "pro."  I was curious as to how many people have been on, etc.  It's really dropped off lately, but I haven't been much of an inspiration.  I think I have my head in the right place now, and should be on track again.  Thanks for checking this out!

Food:
8:15  banana
8:45  bowl of oatmeal (made w/ water) w/ spoonful of Stevia and brown sugar)
10:40  Green tea
11:30  thin whole wheat bagel w/ peanut butter
2:00  bowl of Tomato Bisque soup  (see recipe)  This is Brian and my fave soup!
3:30  Organic peanut butter and choc chip granola bar   (dumb)
6:00  Dinner:  big spring mix salad w/ raw carrots, plus 2 hard corn shell tacos (Morning Star crumbles-tastes just like hamburger but 75% less fat), homemade guac, tomatoes, green olives, and hot sauce.  Yummy dinner.  This is probably the meal I make most.  Everyone enjoys it.
8:00  4 dark choc covered almonds

Exercise:
6:45  Took Junior for 1/3 mile walk, then walked an additional 2 miles.

If you want to know how to get into the 200's, eat like I did yesterday.  There was not one fucking thing w/ nutrients in there, no fruits, no veggies.  Hangovers and I don't do well...  Today is a new day, and I hate this bloated feeling, so I'll do my best today.  I don't want to let myself or you down again.
Plus, I need to get back on track w/ exercise.  I haven't done anything for a few days, and I know that's part of why I'm so f'ing tired.
I was out of damn near every fruit and veggie, so I drove 1/2 hour each way to pick up a few of the essentials.  I knew if I didn't have them on hand (and waited to buy them until tomorrow night, when I'd be closer to town), I'd use that as an excuse not to eat well.  Now, no excuse  :)
Today was actually a very frustrating, emotional day.  Not real happy w/ a couple of things, but I'm glad I took my frustrations out on a fast paced walk, inse

9:45  banana
11:00  thin wheat bagel w/ peanut butter
1:30  Took the boys to lunch, while we our running errands:  salad plate w/ lots of raw veggies, plus some fruit, w/ small amount of oil and vinegar (proud of myself for skipping the banana bread), plus 1/2 tuna salad on crosaint, glass of Diet Coke
3:15  Other 1/2 of tuna sandwich
6:30  Chocolate Smoothie  (see recipe)

Exercise:
10:30  Took Junior for his 1/3 mile walk
7:00  4 mile walk, then took Junior for another 1/3 mile walk