If it weren't for this tiny shift, I don't know that I would've bought my ticket to Maui yesterday. I've been talking myself out of going to my cousin's wedding for a while now...which is why I ended up buying my ticket at a much higher price less than two weeks before the wedding. The hotel everyone is staying out is also sold out, but my Aunt Fern and I got a room at another place not too far away. Maui has been on my bucket list for a long time. I always thought Brian and I would go together, so it's a bummer, I'll be going alone. I also thought I'd be thinner and able to run on the beach...but that thinking is what got me here. I'm thinking about the shift..the shift that lets me envision spending time with some of the people I love most in this world, the shift that sees me getting in long walks on the beach. The shift that allows me to feel the tranquility of the gentle roar of the waves. Oh, how I miss the ocean. I can't wait to watch my cousin get married. I love that kid so much. Anyway, I guess I just wanted to drive home the point that it all starts with baby steps... I've only made minor changes so far, but they've gone so far in terms of my psyche. It all comes down to our mental state, right? The brain controls everything. It's going to be a long journey, but I welcome it with open arms. It's so nice to actually care about myself. It's been such a long time.
I've been on a major Fleetwood Mac kick lately. There are so many songs I could add here, but I'll go with Big Love. It's what made me fall head over heels for Lindsey Buckingham so many years ago. Watch those fingers...you can also feel his passion for the guitar, for the lyrics. I love it.
Enjoy your night,