Ah....I'd apologize for all of the obscenities, but it wouldn't be genuine, so I'll spare you the empty words. It's been a day. Ryne and Cal were messing around which resulted in Cal's glasses getting broken. I didn't have a spare set for this last prescription, so the boys are all at LensCrafter getting a new prescription and glasses. While I'd normally be okay with taping them together (they're on Spring break) for a couple of days, my boys are all going to Phoenix on Tues., so it really needed to be done today. Plus, Cal continues to seem to get blinder by the week, so it forces us to get a new prescription...and just pray "surgery" doesn't come out of the optometrist's mouth. So, although LensCrafter doesn't take our vision insurance...we're getting it done nonetheless. Geez, what is it with kids anyway, thinking they need to be able to see and stuff? Brian gets to deal with all of this, as he gets to get the hell out of dodge for a week, while his wife stays home to work (stupid no vacation at new job, yet) and take care of the dog. At first I was going to be semi-okay with them going on vacation without me, but Brian didn't tell me the exact dates until after he bought their tickets. Yes...they'll be gone over Easter. I can't think about it too much, or I'll just feel sorry for myself even more, and I already feel totally fucking pathetic over just how much I feel sorry for myself over this situation. I'm broken hearted that the first "family vacation" since we started all of these moves, will be without me. I feel helpless that I won't be there to help Caleb through his first airline flight. We'd always held off because of his sensory issues. He's already freaking out, and I feel like the worst mother in history, for not being able to be there for him, let alone not being able to play the "Easter Bunny" for him. I'm going to really have to rely on my sis-in-law playing the part for me. Brian and Ryno are totally stoked, and I am glad they get to go get some sun, but God help me if it fucking snows while they are gone. So, I've been trying to plan out my week for while they are gone. I have a phone date with HP Tues night. I also plan on only buying a bottle of wine per day, that way I can't let myself get to cray cray. A bottle is more than enough to knock my ass out each night. Yeah, typing my plan out makes me sound even more pathetic than I feel, so what I meant to say is.... I'm going to be a rock Tues-Tues. A mother fucking rock. World leaders will aspire to have my nerves of steel.
Yeah, so big day. Really big day.
I hope this Sunday find you finding your happiness in whatever way that floats your boat today. Here's to conquering our fears and living life to the fullest.