Moving on…
You heard it here…No more meat (except seafood and eggs as before). Yesterday was my first full day. I’m tired of the way it makes me feel. I hate being this weight. I hate what meat is…you know, meat from dead animals… Yeah, I hate it all. But mostly, I hate that I started eating it again after five years without. What kind of hot mess does that?! There’s nothing I like about it (I don’t even love the taste of most meat). It was pure self-sabotage. The move and all of the emotional things that went into it cost me a part of my soul. I don’t feel I’m over exaggerating… I feel like someone who loved themselves more than I do, would have put their foot down and said no to the move. But I didn’t…There’s just so many layers to it, but we are here. I’m going to try and repair the parts of my soul that bled…and hopefully come out better than ever…. Sounds convincing, right? So, NO MORE FUCKING MEAT.
I’ve been thinking about the little things (outside of people) that really make me the happiest. I have to tell you how much I miss good music. Man, when’s the last time you bought a C.D. that you could listen to over and over again? I’m thinking the last one for me was probably Pink. I looked forward to that release forever. I bought it and quickly found out I’d purchased the PG version. Mother fucker! Who the fuck wants that? As soon as I heard it, I fell in love with every song. It’s like Pink looks in you and your friends living rooms, hearts, and souls and puts those feelings to paper. A song will remind me of growing up, another may remind me of partying with my friends, another a friend’s marriage, and another my own marriage. Pure gold. I miss that. I miss playing a C.D. to death (Okay…I do that with mix C.D.’s, but that’s not the same). I’m on a mission to find some bands and singers that make me feel like Pink does, or Sheryl Crow the Globe Sessions did, Adele 21, No Doubt, anything by the Dixie Chicks, and God love her, Sara McLachlan with Surfacing. I’m searching out more happiness and it begins with music. I’ll let you know what I find. And please share if you have any new faves.
Wishing you a wonderful evening,
Jen
With that, here are some fantastic lyrics for you from Pink’s side project, You + Me. I don't love it like her solo albums, but it’s pretty good nonetheless (and definitely worth the money). It speaks of what love should be.
You and me were always with each other
Before we knew the others was ever there
You and me we belong together
Just like a breath needs the air
I told you if you called I would come runnin'
Across the highs the lows and the in between
You and me we've got two minds that think as one
And our hearts march to the same beat
They say everything it happens for a reason
You can be flawed enough but perfect for a person
Someone who will be there for you when you fall apart
Guiding your direction when you're riding through the dark,
Oh that's you and me
You and me we're searching' for the same light
Desperate for a cure to this disease
Well some days are better than others,
But I fear no thing as long as you're with me
They say everything' it happens for a reason
You can be flawed enough but perfect for a person
Someone who will be there for you when you fall apart
Guiding your direction when you're riding through the dark
And they say, everything it happens for a reason
You can be flawed enough but perfect for a person
Someone who will be there for you when you start to fall apart,
Guiding your direction when you're riding through the dark
Oh that's you and me
That's you and me