Today is the fourth day in a row that I've gotten in over 10,000 steps. Again, it's been months. It's also the third day in a row that I've done a little 5 min workout routine that my friend put together. Yesterday it got me. I was dead ass tired. I was sore AF. I was 400 steps away from 10k, so I did laps in my house until I hit it. The minute I did, I dropped the the couch. I was done. I took a hot shower, and then I slept better than I have in weeks. When you have this kind of extra weight, even the smallest things take a toll on your body. It hurts, but it will get better. Even today, I feel so much better than yesterday. I had a fantastic walk tonight, where I hardly thought about what hurt. I enjoyed being outside. I enjoyed the fact that Brian was able to take Cal to practice and pick Ryne up (same thing for tomorrow :) I enjoyed having that hour to myself and my dog. I enjoyed...feeling the good.
I weighed in today. It's a humiliating process for me. I was down 4 1/2 pounds, but I was devastated. I'd been monitoring at home and thought I was down 6. I know this is crazy talk. All of it. It took me a while and a lot of self talk to appreciate that 4 1/2 pounds. I've gotten there, though. I think of just how different I feel after such a short time. I don't have the water retention in my hands. I haven't had to take an antacid in a week. I might be sore AF, but I don't feel like I'm going to pass out. I'll take being sore. Soon enough, it will just feel like a good sore.
I've been yammering on for a while now, so I'll let you go. I just wanted to let you know...even if you don't feel ready...take that plunge. What have you got to lose? I'm so, so glad I went out of my comfort zone. I'm so glad that I acknowledged I can't do this on my own. Even if I'm paying someone to essentially just weigh me. I made myself accountable to someone else, which was necessary for me, at this time. Even when you don't wanna, you can be ready.
Hope you're having a great night,