I need to print this out (well, get a printer and print out :) This is something I know I have to remember, but it's a hard one for me. Well, it's probably hard for most of us. I'm better about this now (at my advanced age), but really it's sooo hard. The majority of my friends are really fit. This is awesome. It's probably one of the things that draws me to them: their dedication to taking care of themselves. But then, I often wonder what they see in me. It's not like that with all of my friends, but it is with some. Blah, blah, blah, whine, whine, whine... But again, I've come a long way with this. I just need to keep working on this particular issue.
Saturday was really nice as Brian wanted us to go do something with just the two of us. We mulled over a couple of things, and we decided to go to the town of Roslyn, WA to an Ale Festival. I wanted to go, since that's the town where the t.v. show, Northern Exposure was shot. As an Alaskan, of course that show has a special place in my heart. I got my picture taken in the actual "radio station" from the show. Really, it was just a small room, but it was way cool to me! The ale festival was pretty neat. I was really worried about drinking way too much (as I always seems to do...easy to do when you get a buzz off one beer), because you got 5 drink tokens with admission. Well, there was no fear of drinking too much one you got your glass. They were like a 4 or 5 oz. sampler glasses. It was their first year, so they hadn't thought some things through (like providing water or offering food). Anyway, we took a break from the ale fest to go get lunch at the saloon where many of the Northern Exposure scenes were shot. It was also an opportunity to have a normal size beer. Haha. So, for a Vegetarian, the lunch choices are often small at a pub. I was going to order the veggie burger, but then I started thinking about all of the crap that actually goes into making those things (but I still eat them....), and I thought I'd go with a grilled cheese, even though I haven't been eating dairy, well, except for the pizza the night before. Anyway, we had a really fun time, and even with a good buzz on, I made Brian go for a 4 mile walk with me when we got back into town. I did have to pee twice on the walk, though. My hubby was none to impressed.
This leads me to yesterday morning. Since I've started eating better, I'm very, uh regular. And by that, I mean I crap at the same time every morning. Well, let me tell you that stupid grilled cheese sandwich came back to haunt me. I'm sure that coupled with the pizza, just messed me up. Anyway, I couldn't go. I was miserable all day. I kept eating super high fiber foods yesterday, but to no avail. All that came about was terrible gas... Hot, huh? I was so mad, since I knew I had my weigh in today. I beat myself up terribly. For dinner, I had a banana and 2 mandarin oranges... I know, that's not smart. I needed to eat more and smarter, but I was so terrified of the weigh in, as I'd missed that day of crapping.... But Thank God...it came today at the normal time :) Aren't you glad I shared all that with you? Really, I just want you all to learn from my mistake. Really, dairy is terrible and does bind you up. Oh, the weigh in... It's week 4, and I'm now down a total of 11 pounds. This was my biggest weight loss, so far. So, I'm thrilled with 11 pounds in one month. But also, my head is really trying to fuck with me. I have so far to go... If I felt I could do 11 pounds every month, I'd be more happy. But I know that really isn't possible... Oh man, I have so far to go...so far.... I've got to get that out of this messed up head of mine, though. I feel better. I really do. My knee is sore, but I'll take that with all of the other benefits even just after such a small (in the grand scheme of things) loss. Brian even commented that he could tell I was losing weight, when he put his arm around me in bed. That makes me feel good. O.K., here's happy Jen. I've lost 11 pounds!!! :) I'll be sure to take pics, as I have my before pics. I'm not ready to share them, yet, though. I'm sure you won't really be able to tell anything, yet. But once my body starts changing, hopefully I'll have the courage to share my journey.
Well, I've bored you enough with my tales of insecurity and bowel movements. With that, I'll wish you a wonderful week. It might be Monday, but we are here, and it's our job to make the best life we can, with what we have.
~Jen
Saturday was really nice as Brian wanted us to go do something with just the two of us. We mulled over a couple of things, and we decided to go to the town of Roslyn, WA to an Ale Festival. I wanted to go, since that's the town where the t.v. show, Northern Exposure was shot. As an Alaskan, of course that show has a special place in my heart. I got my picture taken in the actual "radio station" from the show. Really, it was just a small room, but it was way cool to me! The ale festival was pretty neat. I was really worried about drinking way too much (as I always seems to do...easy to do when you get a buzz off one beer), because you got 5 drink tokens with admission. Well, there was no fear of drinking too much one you got your glass. They were like a 4 or 5 oz. sampler glasses. It was their first year, so they hadn't thought some things through (like providing water or offering food). Anyway, we took a break from the ale fest to go get lunch at the saloon where many of the Northern Exposure scenes were shot. It was also an opportunity to have a normal size beer. Haha. So, for a Vegetarian, the lunch choices are often small at a pub. I was going to order the veggie burger, but then I started thinking about all of the crap that actually goes into making those things (but I still eat them....), and I thought I'd go with a grilled cheese, even though I haven't been eating dairy, well, except for the pizza the night before. Anyway, we had a really fun time, and even with a good buzz on, I made Brian go for a 4 mile walk with me when we got back into town. I did have to pee twice on the walk, though. My hubby was none to impressed.
This leads me to yesterday morning. Since I've started eating better, I'm very, uh regular. And by that, I mean I crap at the same time every morning. Well, let me tell you that stupid grilled cheese sandwich came back to haunt me. I'm sure that coupled with the pizza, just messed me up. Anyway, I couldn't go. I was miserable all day. I kept eating super high fiber foods yesterday, but to no avail. All that came about was terrible gas... Hot, huh? I was so mad, since I knew I had my weigh in today. I beat myself up terribly. For dinner, I had a banana and 2 mandarin oranges... I know, that's not smart. I needed to eat more and smarter, but I was so terrified of the weigh in, as I'd missed that day of crapping.... But Thank God...it came today at the normal time :) Aren't you glad I shared all that with you? Really, I just want you all to learn from my mistake. Really, dairy is terrible and does bind you up. Oh, the weigh in... It's week 4, and I'm now down a total of 11 pounds. This was my biggest weight loss, so far. So, I'm thrilled with 11 pounds in one month. But also, my head is really trying to fuck with me. I have so far to go... If I felt I could do 11 pounds every month, I'd be more happy. But I know that really isn't possible... Oh man, I have so far to go...so far.... I've got to get that out of this messed up head of mine, though. I feel better. I really do. My knee is sore, but I'll take that with all of the other benefits even just after such a small (in the grand scheme of things) loss. Brian even commented that he could tell I was losing weight, when he put his arm around me in bed. That makes me feel good. O.K., here's happy Jen. I've lost 11 pounds!!! :) I'll be sure to take pics, as I have my before pics. I'm not ready to share them, yet, though. I'm sure you won't really be able to tell anything, yet. But once my body starts changing, hopefully I'll have the courage to share my journey.
Well, I've bored you enough with my tales of insecurity and bowel movements. With that, I'll wish you a wonderful week. It might be Monday, but we are here, and it's our job to make the best life we can, with what we have.
~Jen
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