Week 4. I'll take it.

Today was one of those days that could've gone down a dark path.  I went out of my comfort zone on something, which caused a great deal of anxiety.  I needed to do it, but it wasn't easy.  I am glad I did it, though.  I worked a bit on the book, but it wasn't coming easily, and I took a look at how I thought the rest of my day would go.  I would do a little cleaning, probably a couple of loads of laundry, stress about finances, watch too much t.v., etc.  I didn't want that to be my day.  You know what?  I fucking did something about it.  Can you believe it?  I imagined how I wanted my day to go, and I actually fucking did it.  I drove out to a state park, and took Jesse on a 3+ mile hike.  OMG.  I loved it.  It was hard work for me, as I have been walking 3 miles a day, but it's on a flat track.  This was climbing up and down stuff and actually feeling ALIVE.  I'm sore as hell right now, but I love it all.  I can't tell you how proud I am of myself.  I really am.  It might sound braggy, but trust me....this is a rare treat.

I weighed in this morning, but I most definitely didn't want to.  I haven't been good this past week.  I could be much worse, but I haven't been good.  Plus, Aunt Flow is ready to burst through my vajajay at any moment.  Anyway, I lost the weight I'd gained on my vacation.  Hell yeah!  I'll take it!  Today has been a day of little and big victories.  From what could've been a totally shitty day, turned into a really great day.  Yay for the power of positive thought.  Here's hoping I can incorporate more of this into my life.

I hope you have a great day: full of positive thought.

~Jen