Week 2 Weigh In

Yesterday was a lazy Sunday.  When I say lazy, I'm not kidding.  I had like 2k steps at 5 p.m.  I decided I wasn't going to sabotage my weigh in anymore, than I already had yesterday or any other given day of the week.  So, I got my fat ass out and walked to get my 10k steps in.  I then had a light dinner (portions aren't always my strong point), and I felt a little better about myself.  The week, as a whole wasn't strong.  I made several poor eating choices over the course of the week.  Drinking a bunch of microbrews on Sat., didn't help, either (although it was fun).  But I am really proud of myself for getting in about 13k steps every day.

The stress of today has been killing me.  I go from feeling like I want to puke to my stomach hurting to I want to eat everything in sight.  Ryne had his ultrasound on his abdomen today.  They were quite thorough, and spent about 1/2 hour taking pictures of him.  I could hardly handle being in there.  Silly, right?  I don't know what the hell they're showing.  I mean, they would say this is the liver, but I would think what in the hell is that or that or that?  Why are they taking so many pictures here.  I'd intentionally not looked up the name of what the x-ray technician said he had (some long as name, which means enlarged spleen and liver), but of course I looked it up on our way there...  I know they've already ruled out some of the things, which leaves scary things.  But maybe it's just a bad virus.  It'll be 3 weeks tomorrow (or Wed), since his tummy started bugging him.  It doesn't seem to be getting better, but thank God it doesn't appear to be getting worse.  If it was something really bad, it would be getting worse, right?  Anyway, the hospital is supposed to interpret the results in the morning, but Ryne's Dr. is off until Thurs.  I've already told their office that another Dr. will need to get in touch with me then.  The waiting would kill me.  But hey, maybe he'll wake up tomorrow and his stomach won't hurt anymore!  That's my prayer.

I was very nervous to weigh myself this morning...  Very nervous.  Anyway, I was down 2 lbs.  I'll take it.  For the week I had...I'll take it.  I will do better this week.  I know this.  I have to.  But in 2 weeks, nearly a 7 lb weight loss isn't the worst thing.  At this weight, I know I'm capable of more.  I'll get there.  Thanks for following me along this journey.

Today=carbs

8:00  Smoothie (banana, flax seed, spinach, frozen blueberries, soy milk)

10:00  Slice of "Good Seed" Killer Dave's Bread, toast

1:00  Subway Footlong Wheat Veggie DeLite  (pepper jack, heavy spinach, lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, black olives,  sweet teriyaki sauce)

6:00  Homemade, 1 blueberry and 2 regular pancakes w/ vegan marg and real maple syrup