Do you hear that??? Me neither. Brian is at work, Ryne is at a friend's house, and Cal is at swim practice. I have two hours to myself. I can't remember the last time that happened. Jesse is here, though, snoring away on the couch. There's something so comforting to her breathing, snoring. She is the cutest damn dog. Anyway, I've been starved for some time to myself and soaking up every minute. What I'd really like to do is pour a nice glass of red, but alas, I'm trying to be good about that. But damn that does sound good. Boy, does it ever.
Driving to work yesterday I listened to Alanis doing an interview on Howard Stern (did you know that I liked him ;) She was on there years ago, and she was just as great yesterday as she ever way. It's the twenty year anniversary of Jagged Little Pill. It's so hard to believe.... I remember so well when You Oughta Know came out, those lyrics, that angry chick with the long hair. My God, she talked about going down on him in a theater? WTF? Who had ever heard of such a thing? It was and still is pure brilliance. The album is so much more than that song, though. Every single song on the record is Perfect. If you know the album, you know that's the name of one of the tracks. For the ten year anniversary Alanis put out an acoustic version of the record, which I like even more than the original. I think it first came out only at Starbucks and my friend Jody bought it for me. Best thing I've ever had from Starbucks! (I don't drink coffee). Anyway, my friend Erin, aka Angelina and I went to the Acoustic tour she did that year. I kinda get some ADD going, and I was so worried I wouldn't be able to sit through an acoustic concert, but it was one of the very best I've ever seen. Erin and I have been friends since college. Holy moly have the two of us have some fun together. When we're together, there's nothing but laughter and total craziness. My God, from being ambushed by a swat team (long story-but it wasn't for us), to riding on the hood of her car, to recent years of us jumping on stage when our friends from Common Ground are playing and she sings backup while I'm a "dancer." Yes, good times, always with Angelina. Anyway, there was an intermission to this Alanis show, and the show was so moving...and Erin and I of course had a few drinks in us, and I remember we went out to get another drink during intermission and we both ended up talking about life and crying. Crying! That's how powerful Alanis is. We did up laughing about it later that same night, but we aren't the type of friends that get together and cry.
As I've been writing, I did end up putting this album on. When I thought about writing earlier today, I had one song in mind, then another, then another. How can you choose? Anyway, this isn't my very favorite song from the album, but I do love it. I guess life is about learning. Hopefully we learn from everything. Like tonight when I thought that spicy guac and chips for dinner were a good idea (you see-I simply can't be left to my own devices). I love every lyric to this song, except: I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone. That's some bullshit advice Alanis. You were so close to being Perfect. Yeah, if you can avoid that shit. Do it. haha.
I know this post wasn't made up of the most deep thoughts (by Jack Handy), but there are a million things floating around in this brain at any given time (especially if I'm in a meeting a work), and thank God they aren't all heavy. I will say this, though. I've really been missing my closest friends lately. Big sigh. Hope to be able to figure out a way to see some of them soon.
Have a great night all. Hope you've been able to find your own alone time. I tell you it's the best drug out there.
Swallow it down, that jagged little pill. It feels so good swimming in your stomach.
~Jen