Try, Try, Try

Hello!  I’m excited to say that I am, well: excited!  Yesterday I started a page on Facebook in the hopes of maybe making this more interactive.  Anyway, named it: diariesofafatass.com  of all things. So, if you want, check it out.  I invited some of my fb friends to start out.  I’m hoping that people will use it as a motivational tool for themselves, whether it be through inspiration or by putting their own goals on there, so they feel like they need to be accountable to someone.  Anyway, right now it’s limited on what I can do with the page. I’m almost at 30 “Likes,” and I guess once we get there, it will allow me to do more with the page.  I am excited to branch out, but on the other hand, I’ve pretty much kept the blog separate for Facebook or where ppl I know would be able to see what I’m up to.  In the beginning I promoted it a couple of times, but not really much since. So, although I live in IL now, all of myfriends and family can now see what I’ve done to myself (if they choose to do so).  Man, I wish it was a “look at me now” type of page, where they look and go damn, that chick looks good for 40, but no….  It is what it is that’s
for sure.

After my body had enough time to actually wake up this morning, I was in a pretty good mood.  I got up early and took a bath.  I got my legs shaved, which always makes me feel better. I thought about my friends that have their privates and such waxed and lasered, as I used
the old fashioned razor.  I can’t wait to be in a place where I think that’s important to my appearance.  Now, it would be like the joke…throw some flour down and find the spots.  You know what I’m talking about.  But it was nice to lay there if only a few minutes with a washcloth over my eyes in an effort to help the never ending puffiness.  It was nice to think about the day ahead and how excited I was to take my life back.  I really feel like in a pretty good place in my head.  I want to feel like that physically, too.  I’m just going to have to do a great job of reminding myself that it’s not going to come overnight.  Especially with my approach.  Oh, I also turned on VH1 after the bath/shower and the first video that came on was Try.  I think that’s my all-time favorite video.  I identify with Pink and her lyrics so much, that I know her head is a never ending string of what-have-you’s and anxiety.  And although if I were to pick my perfect body, that wouldn’t be it. I so admire her strength and determination to get there.  It’s crazy amazing how strong she is.  Everything about that video is amazing to me: the message, lyrics, and dance, all of it. Although I must say I’d never thought about the part where he kicks her in, uh, snatch, until my friend pointed out that it was her favorite part.  Haha.

So, I’ve been eating really well today and keeping my eye on the prize.  I’ve got a bit of a headache working, but that’s to be expected. 
My body is used to eating and drinking poison and sugar.  I know it’s got to be going through withdrawals.

So, I start this journey at 224.4 lbs.  MOFO…. I am on the tail end of my cycle. Maybe for peace of mind, I’ll pretend that's worth 10 lbs.  : )  

I’ve often heard there’s no such thing as “try,” it’s just do.  Well, that might be true, but then Pink’s song would be have been you’ve got to get up and do do.  I don’t think that would’ve sounded right.  Especially to those that apparently have the same capacity for humor as a teenage boy.  You know what it does start with trying..which leads to doing.  And then let’s do do all the way to town.  Here’s hoping you’re having a great day!  (Full of lots of do-do)

6:30 
Smoothie (water, ground flax seed, romaine lettuce, banana, frozen
blueberries)
Through the morning, some hot tea and a soda
water
10:00 A pear
12:30  Large romaine salad w/ lite honey mustard dressing and a bowl of tomato bisque soup (see recipe).
2:00  An apple

"Try"


Ever wonder about what he's doing
How it all turned to lies

Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why

Where there is
desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound
to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die

You've gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
You
gotta get up and try, try, try

Eh, eh, eh

Funny how the heart can
be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so
easy?
Even when it's not right

Where there is desire
There is gonna
be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But
just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up
and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
You gotta get up and try,
try, try

Ever worried that it might be ruined
And does it make you
wanna cry?
When you're out there doing what you're doing
Are you just
getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by, by, by

Where there is
desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound
to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die

You've gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
You
gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up
and try, try, try
You gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try,
try, try

You gotta get up and try, try, try
Gotta get up and try, try,
try