The Wet Spot

Night sleeping has continued to elude me.  After I took the boys to school this morning, I was able to actually take a nap.  Wow.  It sure helped everything.  I felt better, but I didn't feel great.  I was really dreading my appointment w/ the trainer this afternoon.  I kept trying to talk myself out of going...whine, whine, blah, blah, etc.  Anyway, I manned up and got my fat ass there today.  Holy shit!  It felt fucking great!  I'm really excited to commit myself to the gym.  I just wish it were closer.  Anyway, we did the treadmill and then did weights.  The weights were going great until we got to this weird ab/lower back workout.  With each scrunch, I felt a little dribble....  Thank God that was the only one that she had me do only 2 sets of 12 on.  When I got done, I slid off the seat to wipe away the spot I was sure to have left.  We went to the next one, and I started thinking maybe nothing actually came out.  Well...when I got up there was a little spot there.  Now, I'm no stranger to the spots, but every other time in my life it's much bigger, and it's actually sweat.  So, now I need to figure out how to get through the weight room w/out pissing myself.  Maybe an adult diaper, maybe a pad?  Either way, I'm pissed (literally), b/c that means I can't wear yoga pants without underwear.   Hopefully this particular exercise will strengthen the muscles enough that it won't happen anymore.  An old lady can dream, can't she?

I have a job interview in the a.m.  I'm so not wanting to do it, but I've made the decision to accept any credible interview that's thrown my way.  It's for a Purchasing/Sourcing analyst for SAP.  I know SAP really well, and I'm a good buyer, but I HATE computers.  So, I'm thinking a job that requires creating algorithms, power point, etc., isn't my dream job :)

I hope you guys are well.  Would love to hear how you guys are doing on your journey toward better health.

~Jen