The first step...

I think I'm in the midst of a bunch of baby step before the first big step...yeah, just  a bunch of cop out bullshit toward weight loss....but I have been taking steps in my life toward good health.  First, I can't tell you how good it feels to be done with the book.  Laura is also reading it now, and she has the best reactions, which have gone a long way in making me feel better about it.  She's just about done, and has text and called me w/ different emotions, which makes my day every single time.  I'm looking for an editor now, which has me on edge....It's one thing to have your friends like it, it's another to have someone who knows what good writing is come back and possibly tell you it's crap that they don't want to take on...but I digress.  Back to feeling good about the book.  I feel fucking great. 

You know I've been thinking a lot about the Other Misty lately.  If I wake up in the middle of the night, I can't go back to sleep, etc.  It's fucking heart breaking.  It's made me think a lot about life and the petty things that get in the way of happiness.  That being said, I have this friend I haven't seen in nearly two years.  It's not that we haven't been friends, but we used to make it a point to see one another.  With everything going on, I thought, just make it fucking happen.  And guess what...we are.  I was afraid of hearing, I'm too busy, or it's just not practical.  Okay, I can go on and on about myself and my insecurities as we all know I will, but just got a text on Misty.  Not good....please continue to pray for her. Let the doctors be wrong....Let God heal her....Let them her surprise them.

Jen