It's been really nice to have Marie going on this journey with me, too. Our offices are right next to each other, so we've got a support system, right there at work. We've talked a lot about what works for us and what our goals are. At one point, we even unzipped our pants and showed each other our tummy fat jiggle. It's going away.... We are truly excited to become the people we want to be. I'm so tired of sitting back and watching life pass me by. I've joined the game of life. My friend Laura wanted to take me to a nice Sushi dinner this week, and I actually let her. I'm not good about letting people do things for me like that. It was so nice and enjoyable to do something during the week like that. It was nice to have night where I wasn't running from work to get home to tackle everything for the boys. Laura is so fun to be around, and I'm so glad we got to hang out and do something out of the ordinary. I was also able to talk to lots of friends this week. I was present. I love it when that happens.
Nurse Kristy took the bull by the horns with my house this week. Her and Cookie have been taking care of things for me lately. Anyway, NK had the week off and made that long drive from her house to mine a few times this week. She had a friend come out and give an awesome quote on getting the carpets cleaned and has arranged for it all to be done. She also asked if I wanted to rent it as she knew someone who was needing a temporary place. The gal is really excited about the house and her and NK were spending their Friday night cleaning the house last night. When it comes to the house, I've just been burned over and over again so I've been stressed about the prospect of having someone in there again. But this gal is totally OCD, and I love that. As part of the deal, she's cleaning the whole thing. Even though NK didn't need to help out with that, she is. Wow... You can't ask anymore from someone like that. She did this all on her own. I never asked for anything. I got Cookie a key and Cookie got a hold of NK, and it all just went from there. It all seems so promising. I feel better having someone in there, than leaving it vacant. Plus, now I won't be paying for all of those utilities on a house that we aren't even in. In the end, hopefully this will all contribute to the house selling more quickly, too. The offer from December fell through. BofA has been a nightmare.... Anyway, this experience with NK and Cookie leaves my heart full. I could have never expected people to care about me so much and want to relieve my stress level like that. Good God, I'm so blessed when it comes to my friends.
Well, back to the excess weight.... This week I've really seen it. I mean I've really gotten it. I've stood in front of the mirror naked and really took it all in. It's so disgusting. I jiggled it and tried to take in every layer, roll, cellulite, and tried to imagine what my insides look like. When we have fat like that on the outside, the inside is much worse. Our organs are squished and not functioning to their full potential. I want it gone. I'm willing to work for it. I'm willing to work for me.
Brian and I actually got out together last night. I had to take half a day vacation to take Ryne to an ortho appointment, so I was home early. A friend/coworker had gotten a promotion, so our regular group was going out. I always love hanging out with them, but I'm always wishing Brian could be there with us. So, last night was a good opportunity. Once Brian got home, we headed out to Rochelle to meet up with everyone. Brian hadn't met a lot of them, so it was great to get them all together. We had an absolute blast. I really love being around my husband when we are free from all responsibilities. God, it was nice for us both just to let loose. Brian's not always the most social guy, but he dove right in last night. It was the most fun we've had in quite a while. Last night was one of the few times since being out here, that I was grateful for our experience of living in IL. I know this isn't where we'll be forever, but we have really met some wonderful people here. Our kids absolutely love their schools, and Brian and I are both fortunate to have jobs. I guess I should quit bitching about being here... But that won't happen. haha. It's supposed to get to -17 this week. Freaking crazy! Every day I keep in mind that summer isn't too far away....
I hope today finds you all in your happy place. Here's to awareness and good healthy.