I took Cal to swim practice this afternoon. There's only been one coach both days now, so it's much, much different than what he had in IL. There's
supposed to be another coach, and hopefully we see them soon. It's evident that Cal won't get as much out of this program the way it is now. We felt bad taking our kids out of their great schools and their fantastic sporting opportunities. I thought a lot about that today, as I watched Cal struggle with some basic things. First off, I always have a really hard time when I watch him try to navigate through things that would seem so elementary. In some situations, his processing skills just aren't there. I watched him struggle for quite a while trying to find flippers. I then watched him try to follow the stretching techniques, while holding onto his goggles. It just wouldn't occur to him to put them down without being told. It was just a bunch of things like that today. The Coach did come over to Cal with the stretches, though. I was glad to see that, but I can't expect Cal to always have one on one attention, when there's a whole team there that needs him. Anyway, once they finally got to swimming, I went outside and did 15 sets of up and down on the steps that lead to the building. I then walked for 15 mins. I needed to get my mind off of the small amount of challenges that Cal has, when I know how extremely fortunate he is to be where he is in his life. I try not to let Autism affect how I look at my son. It rarely does anymore. I watch him line of his toy cars every day, and various things that would stand out to an outsider, but his quirks are his. He's an amazing kid. But I'm human. Sometimes/days my mind goes where it did today. I hate the realization that I can't be there to help him every step of the way. But as parents, I guess we all have that feeling when it comes to our kids.
Speaking of kids. Ryne has still been having an adjustment going to the new school. Each morning has been a struggle to get him to go, and to get a move
on. But this morning, was better than the previous mornings. He was
in a good mood when he got home from practice tonight, and he was quick to get his homework done. He's a likeable kid. I'm so glad to see that things are getting a little easier for him. I'm hopeful for an event free morning, tomorrow!
As I write this, I'm hungry... I need to keep my mind off of it.... Speaking of food:
8:00 Smoothie (soy milk, frozen tropical fruit mix, flax seed, banana, spinach)
11:30 Subway (same veggie sandwich as yesterday)
2:00 Hummus snack pack along w/ 6 or 7 wheat Ritz
6:30 Mashed potatoes w/ gravy, spring mix salad (w/ Annie's dressing), and steamed broccoli
I also hit my steps goal again.
Right now I'm at 12k +. The
FitBit isn't reading the stairs, though.
I did all those sets, and it didn't give me credit for any.
What a pisser!
Hope you all have a wonderful day,