The weigh-in was good this week. I lost 2 1/2 pounds. My stomach is jacked up, so I haven't been as hungry as I normally am, but I still made good choices. I've wanted a burger. I've wanted the fresh cookies sitting on my counter. I've wanted pizza. Still, I know every choice I make matters. I can do those things in moderation, but I've chosen to give a lot of thought to everything I've put in my body. The gal I weigh in with couldn't be more complimentary. She told me this week, that she tells other clients about me. That's really cool to hear. It's hard to believe that about myself, but I'm working on that. I would love to lead by example, because this is no bullshit...some of you have been with me for years on this....if I can do it, ANYONE can do it. I can't stress this enough. I don't know why it really stuck this time. I think I just got sick of feeling sick....my weight was affecting everything. I've said this before: I wasn't really ready to start. My head wasn't in that place, but I did it anyway. I think of the eating changes I make the first few weeks and know the food choices weren't really all that great, but they were better than what I was doing before. It just kept getting better until I got to a place that I feel pretty good about most of my days. If you're thinking about making changes...just do it. You really have nothing to lose (except the weight ;)
Okay, back to my stomach. I finally figured out that it's not anxiety that I've been feeling. Anxiety is something that doesn't last long for me, and this stomach thing has been constant. I got measured yesterday and my stomach hadn't gone down at all, which Jessica couldn't believe, given my weight loss (we hadn't measured in months). Where she measure the stomach is rock hard (upper stomach-where I'm having the issue). It's sticking out, and it was finally the thing (and my friend) that got me to realize this is a real, physical thing, not just a manifestation of pain. I'm really glad I went to the Dr this morning, because today has been the worst day, yet, for my stomach. The pain was excruciating this morning when I took my vitamins. I went to the appointment thinking it was an ulcer, but Dr wasn't really sure-could be a few things. Hopefully tomorrow he'll have the results of my lab work, and we can get to work on making it better. He did give me a prescription to help with the tummy until we know exactly what we're dealing with. Here's hoping tomorrow is the day it starts to get better!
I rec'd the nicest text today. My Auntie had the sweetest thing to say and followed it up with something even sweeter. She actually made me cry. It's amazing how much a difference something like that can make in your day. I've been thinking about that saying today, "In a world where you can be anything, be kind." Let's be those people. It costs you nothing.
I leave this blog today feeling especially grateful for my family, a best friend who forces me to come out of my hiding place, even when it's the last thing I want to do, and for Ed Sheeran. I mean, Ed...he makes life worth living. Here's his latest song, and it's just plain fun. The video is awesome, too. Enjoy #iloveyouedsheeran
Have a wonderful night.