The weekend is coming to a close.
I'm trying hard not to think about tomorrow, as I still have these last
few moments of the weekend to embrace and take in. On the other hand, I'm looking to go into Monday with a fresh attitude. I may not love my job. But I have one... At some point, I need to grow up and accept that the responsibility I've been looking to avoid my whole career is here, and I can turn and run or I can
give it my all and make sure that my instincts have been right in what I want
out of what I do for a living. There was a time when I let work control my happiness and my time. I won't do that this time. I'll give it my all and if that isn't good enough....it isn't good enough. But anyway...enough about my job.
This has been a nice weekend. We all just hung around the house and got a few things done (I do mean only a few...pretty lazy)! Today has been especially nice. It's been a good day of finding joy from many places. I woke up early, as I seem to every Sunday, but I actually was able to get back to sleep and actually sleep in. Brian made his Sunday morning French toast. I worked on the bills and organizing a ton of paperwork. "E from AK" haha, and I had an all day text going. I can't tell you how blessed I feel to have my friends in my life that I grew up with. She was my maid of honor in my wedding. Just yesterday, I
looked at a picture of my wedding and hated the way I looked. My insecurities go back from as far as I can remember. Anyway, E brings up the wedding today and had such beautiful things to say. Really, truly lucky to have grown up where I did and know the people I know. Caleb and I got in some ping pong
today, and tonight I've been able to get a little reading done. I'm becoming obsessed with this, Shift Happens book. I'm having to fight the urge to just sit and read the whole thing. I'm enjoying taking it in and trying to soak it up. Here's a couple of excerpts the book that gave me pause for thought today:
"Self-acceptance is your number one goal in life. Why? Because for as long as
you believe that there is something unacceptable about you, you will push away
love, you will sabotage success, you will unconsciously conspire against joy,
you will struggle, and you will never really find out who you are or what you
are really capable of." It goes on to say, "Self-acceptance transforms your perception of yourself. The more you commit to self-acceptance, the more you will begin to see that there is nothing about the real you this is wrong, bad, not okay, or not good enough. Self-acceptance inspires all sorts of personal alchemy and self-realization. It is truly the most powerful act of healing, prosperity, and love on the planet."
I'm proud to say that I didn't drink any soda thisweekend. I didn't eat great, but I ate much better than I have been lately. We BBQ'd tonight (in an effort to wish Spring to show up, but it didn't work). I made potato salad, which is probably my favorite thing that I make. It's a big pain in the ass, but worth it.
Hope you all had a wonderful weekend!