I was able to talk to Mom last night, which helped with the sorrow of the day. I was so worried Mom would find out about Dawn, in passing when she got home. But thankfully Mom had talked to my sister Dawn the night before, and heard that she had taken a turn for the worse. When Mom got up the next day, another member of the ferry crew, came down to let her know that she had passed. My heart aches for my Mom losing such a close friend. My heart aches for Dawn’s family and all that loved her. I talked to one of my cousin’s yesterday, and she was quite shaken up. Dawn really had such a
positive impact on so many people’s lives. She will definitely be missed.
Fucking cancer….it has taken many people from Brian and me. Brian’s lost some great friends, and I’ve known so many people over the years. One of my earliest memories was going to my Mom’s friend’s house. Mom told me to just sit there while she visited, because her friend was really sick. I remember sitting there quietly and seeing her friend, who no longer looked like herself and was unable to get out of bed. The most painful thing I’ve ever seen, was seeing Gail Blatchley hours before she passed away nearly 2 years ago. I’d seen her got through years of battling breast cancer on and off. I was unprepared to see her at the end. Seeing Gail in pain like that and incoherent, is burned in my brain, forever. Nobody should ever have to suffer like that. I don’t understand God’s plan in these situations, and the things that happen in this world every day. I guess I never will…
Yesterday I ate like a pig. I did not follow my plan. The only positive I can say, is that I really, really wanted some Pepsi, but I did not have any. I was proud of myself for having some sense of self control. The pop is so hard to come back from. I woke up in the middle of the night with heartburn. No doubt, from the
pizza the co. brought in for lunch. It was a reminder that I simply can no longer eat like that. I wish that I could deal with really difficult things without turning to food, but I’m not there, yet. I can tell you that I’m back on track today. I will not let yesterday ruin how good I’ve felt about my progress this week.
Oh, have you noticed? It’s Friday! Yay! We have a busy weekend ahead of us, but I’m so thankful to have some time with the family. Well, if I don’t take Brian out first. I knew he was a slob when I married him, but there are some weeks that I absolutely can’t take it anymore. This has been one of those weeks… Hopefully, he pulls it together this weekend.
I hope this weekend finds you with much happiness and good health.
7:40 Banana, 2 Cutie oranges, Pure Leaf unsweetened tea
10:00 Large red apple
12:00 Footlong Veggie sandwich on wheat w/ honey mustard, soda water