Cal had a baseball game tonight, so it's been a busy day. Actually, it's been a crazy, busy week. I know it's only Hump Day! but sunnava bitch, I'm counting down to Friday. The commute, the job, the late nights at the ballpark have caught up to me tonight. By nature, I'm a night owl, and I've been finding it really hard to get to bed early. It's just that there's no time for me, if I go to bed early. But right now, typing this is my time. I enjoy this. I'm too tired to have anything really clever to say, but it makes me feel good just being on here. Even if I'm the only one who reads this, I enjoy having a voice again. And I can't tell you how happy I am, that I'm in a place where I'm not afraid to share my voice or say what's on my mind. Could it be, that at my fattest and obviously oldest I've ever been, I've freed myself from the worry of what others think? I'm not all the way there, but mofo, I've come a long ass way. I'm so very thankful for this.... It's as if I'm free....
I'm too tired to write on the book tonight, but I've been thinking about it a lot. This last stretch has been the toughest for me. Apparently I don't even like drama or confrontation when it's in a fictional form. The big "thing" in the book is completely made up, but I feel so protective of the characters that I'm being very cautious at this point of the book.
Well, I should get some sleep...
Thanks so much for being a part of my life,
Jen
Oh, I heard this song, coming back from the ball field tonight. It had been a while since I heard it, but I do love Staind.
This is my life, it's not what it was before
All these feelings I've shared
And these are my dreams
That I'd never lived before
Somebody shake me
'Cause I, I must be sleeping,
Now that we're here, so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
An' all the mistakes one life contained
They all finally start to go away
An' now that we're here, it's so far away
An' I feel like I can face the day
An' I can't forget that I'm not ashamed
To be the person that I am today
These are my words
That I've never said before
I think I'm doin' okay
And this is the smile
I've never shown before
Somebody shake me
'Cause I, I must be sleeping
An' now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
An' all the mistakes one life contained
They all finally start to go away
An' now that we're here, it's so far away
An' I feel like I can face the day
An' I can't forget that I'm not ashamed
To be the person that I am today
I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
An' all the mistakes one life contained
They all finally start to go away
An' now that we're here, it's so far away
An' I feel like I can face the day
An' I can't forget that I'm not ashamed
To be the person that I am today
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