I was really bummed to read tonight that Merle Haggard had died. Merle is one of my Mom's very favorites, so naturally I love him, too. When I think of Merle, it takes me to my Mom's house, the house smelling of baked goods, music playing loudly, while Mom hums along. I made a C.D. for a friend a couple of nights ago, and I had Mama Tried on there, but I decided to take it off at the last minute. I know I can get a little hick in my music choices, and I wasn't sure my younger friend would appreciate it. I shouldn't overthink things so much...I bet she would've liked it. What's not to like?
I leave for Maui in a few days. I had big plans for tonight and finally getting my list together of what I need...maybe even pack a little. I've been home for 2 1/2 hours and haven't done any of it. The fact that I'm writing now, pretty much means I won't get to it at all. Co-Workers keep asking how much I've packed, if I'm bringing this, if I'm bringing that. The truth is, I think they've thought about it more than I have. The trip is overwhelming to me. I'm glad I bought the ticket. I took that step. I really am looking forward to seeing my family. I just need to get past the I wish I were this...I wish I were that...before seeing everyone. It's hard to get excited about seeing people you love, when I'm feeling so unaccomplished. I shouldn't even give that shit a second thought. They'll love me more than I think I deserve, no matter what. They're good like that.
I had something else I was going to write about tonight, but I'm bushed. I had therapy today, and it always wears me out. There were lots of great things about today, though. There were lots of laughs with co-workers, texts with a great friend, time with my boys tonight, and Jesse is sleeping at my feet as I write. Brian should be home soon, and he'll finally be off work for a while. He's taking time off while I'm gone, so he actually won't be back to work until next Sunday. It's too bad we can't take this trip together, but it will be nice to get to see him over the next few days. It's also really great that he'll have so much time with the boys. I know they're excited for it.
As you'd expect, I'll leave you with a little Merle. He has lots of great songs, but this is one of my faves. I hope his sounds bring you back some great memories, as they do for me.
~Jen
I leave for Maui in a few days. I had big plans for tonight and finally getting my list together of what I need...maybe even pack a little. I've been home for 2 1/2 hours and haven't done any of it. The fact that I'm writing now, pretty much means I won't get to it at all. Co-Workers keep asking how much I've packed, if I'm bringing this, if I'm bringing that. The truth is, I think they've thought about it more than I have. The trip is overwhelming to me. I'm glad I bought the ticket. I took that step. I really am looking forward to seeing my family. I just need to get past the I wish I were this...I wish I were that...before seeing everyone. It's hard to get excited about seeing people you love, when I'm feeling so unaccomplished. I shouldn't even give that shit a second thought. They'll love me more than I think I deserve, no matter what. They're good like that.
I had something else I was going to write about tonight, but I'm bushed. I had therapy today, and it always wears me out. There were lots of great things about today, though. There were lots of laughs with co-workers, texts with a great friend, time with my boys tonight, and Jesse is sleeping at my feet as I write. Brian should be home soon, and he'll finally be off work for a while. He's taking time off while I'm gone, so he actually won't be back to work until next Sunday. It's too bad we can't take this trip together, but it will be nice to get to see him over the next few days. It's also really great that he'll have so much time with the boys. I know they're excited for it.
As you'd expect, I'll leave you with a little Merle. He has lots of great songs, but this is one of my faves. I hope his sounds bring you back some great memories, as they do for me.
~Jen
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