I've been sick since last weekend. The kinda sick that makes you want to close your eyes and just wake up in a week when it's over. I even stayed home from work on Monday, which has to say something. I think it's the first sick day I've taken since working at this co. I value my vacation days (they are what get me out of IL). I'd finally clawed my way out of the hole and had 2 vacation days. Every single day I think about how I could use them, how long to hold onto them, how no matter what, they don't amount to all of the things I'd like to do between now and the 4th of July. But anyway...yes, I'm down to one, and Brian is trying to talk me into staying home tomorrow. It's been a brutal weekend. Every hour or so I tell myself I should really go to a clinic or something, but honestly, I'm tired, and that sounds like a lot of work. I can joke now, because I think I'm finally turning a corner. I'm just praying I wake up tomorrow with some energy. But with everything bad, we tell ourselves that there's something good....and with this fucking cold/flu whatever, the good is that I've been laid up if I haven't been at work. I'm not kidding. I spent all of last Sunday/Monday in bed, and after work in bed, and all this weekend on the couch. The good that comes with this, is I've had the time to find an editor for the next stage of the book. I've been wanting to do this since we purchased the house mid Nov, but I knew how time consuming it would be. So, I've worked on it all week, and I finally hired somebody this afternoon. I'm nervous and excited, but I really think I've found a good fit. She's more money than I wanted to spend, but at the same time, I think I got a good deal. She's someone that will be able to walk me through this thing to the end.
I've thought a lot about the book today. I haven't been really thinking about the story, but all that has gone into it. I've thought about all of the time I've worked on it, how much time I spent editing and how much my content editor spent on it, money I've spent on it, and now more money..., the time that my beta readers spent on it. It's crazy. It's just a process that doesn't seem to end, but the story is done...and hopefully there is now a real end in sight. I've thought a lot about the encouragement I've gotten over it from most who have read it, and the reading between the lines of who might not have loved it. I've thought about all of these things, but at the end of the day, I'm still happy about it. The book will be out of my hands for the next month. This time, I'll handle the process much better. This book has taken more time than anything over the past two years, and I'm finally to the point where I'll just sit and trust. My word, I just looked at how much I've written about the damn book. The word count is nearly as high as the book itself!
I have so many things on my mind today. Too many things. Things I should just sit with. So, I should end this before I ramble on about more things you don't want to hear about. My mind is a crazy thing sometimes, it never rests. Especially when I'm laid out for a week. The bottom line is, I can't control everything, no matter how much I want to. I wish I could change the way I thought about some things, but then again, I wouldn't have the good that comes with this never ending crazy ass brain of mine. It's what lets me write, kick ass at F/Marry/Kill, and entertains me in mind numbing meetings.
I wish you all a fantastic week. It's our week, we can make whatever we want out of it. That's pretty cool, right?
Oh, and how about them Seahawks!
Jen
My fave song right now. Is it just me, or could this dude be straight out of Making A Murderer?
I've thought a lot about the book today. I haven't been really thinking about the story, but all that has gone into it. I've thought about all of the time I've worked on it, how much time I spent editing and how much my content editor spent on it, money I've spent on it, and now more money..., the time that my beta readers spent on it. It's crazy. It's just a process that doesn't seem to end, but the story is done...and hopefully there is now a real end in sight. I've thought a lot about the encouragement I've gotten over it from most who have read it, and the reading between the lines of who might not have loved it. I've thought about all of these things, but at the end of the day, I'm still happy about it. The book will be out of my hands for the next month. This time, I'll handle the process much better. This book has taken more time than anything over the past two years, and I'm finally to the point where I'll just sit and trust. My word, I just looked at how much I've written about the damn book. The word count is nearly as high as the book itself!
I have so many things on my mind today. Too many things. Things I should just sit with. So, I should end this before I ramble on about more things you don't want to hear about. My mind is a crazy thing sometimes, it never rests. Especially when I'm laid out for a week. The bottom line is, I can't control everything, no matter how much I want to. I wish I could change the way I thought about some things, but then again, I wouldn't have the good that comes with this never ending crazy ass brain of mine. It's what lets me write, kick ass at F/Marry/Kill, and entertains me in mind numbing meetings.
I wish you all a fantastic week. It's our week, we can make whatever we want out of it. That's pretty cool, right?
Oh, and how about them Seahawks!
Jen
My fave song right now. Is it just me, or could this dude be straight out of Making A Murderer?
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