Last night turned out to be a really good night. I made myself become a participant in my life and my boys’ lives. I’ve been so drained, that it felt so
great to feel alive. Brian had to work late (ended up being a nearly 16 hour day for him), so the boys and I were on our own. We took Junior for a walk down to the park. Caleb loves to hold the leash. It’s the cutest thing. Ryne
is into riding his bike, which just scares the bejesus out of me. This kid pays attention to nothing. At least in our old neighborhood, he was always riding w/ the neighbor girl, Christina, and she kept him in line. I know, I need to relax a little and let him be a kid…. Anyway, Ryne rode ahead and Cal and I walked Junior. Once we got down to the park, there was a Golden Retriever in somebody’s front yard. She didn’t have a tag on her, but she looked well taken care of, and I believe she probably belonged to that house. Anyway, I let her and Junior do their welcome sniff. We then went across the street to the park, and the dog followed Junior over. They actually played! I nearly cried. I was so happy. I haven’t seen Junior act like that since Sara died. Now, mind you,
he’s pretty darn old, so his “play” is not what it used to be, but he was having
a ball. After a while, the other dog started humping Junior, which totally grossed the kids out. I thought it was totally funny. Ah, the old man’s still got it, and he doesn’t have to do the work! Anyway, it was a great way for all of
us to spend time together. It also completely wiped Junior out, which was a good thing. He’s really been losing it lately, and he is driving us all nuts a lot of
the time. (P.S. if that dog is out again tonight, I’ll knock on doors, and if nobody knows who she belongs to, she’s coming home w/ usJ Uh, but don’t tell Brian. He might lock me out.
When we got home, my friend called, and we had an amazing conversation, as
always. I also had 2 micros and a Coors Light during our conversation, so it was almost like we were at a bar together J I was feeling really great after our
talk, and then I had a huge burst of energy. I went to do the dishes, and then my phone rang again. It was another really close friend. 2 phone calls
in one night. This never happens! So, to hell with the dishes, I sat down, and had another phenomenal talk with a great friend. The timing of last night couldn’t have been more perfect. I really have been missing having friends around, something fierce lately.
I woke up in a great mood this morning. Once again, the sun is out. I love it. The weather is really the only thing I like about the Midwest. I grabbed some mix c.d. from a couple of years ago, and cranked it on the way to work. Man, I make good c.d.’s.lol I blasted everything from Miley Cyrus to Michael McDonald, to Pink. I’m praying this mood continues. It feels so
good.
Anyway, I thought I’d do this early today, since I don’t what the day is going to hold. If able, I’ll add more later. I have started the day w/ a smoothie, which felt awesome. However, I am drinking a Pepsi right now. I’m trying to wean myself off of this poison, once again.
Oh, and last, but certainly not least: today is Amy’s birthday. Happy Birthday, my friend. May you be able to enjoy some cake, cupcakes, or whatever today, without feeling the guilt. Much love to you.
~Jen
great to feel alive. Brian had to work late (ended up being a nearly 16 hour day for him), so the boys and I were on our own. We took Junior for a walk down to the park. Caleb loves to hold the leash. It’s the cutest thing. Ryne
is into riding his bike, which just scares the bejesus out of me. This kid pays attention to nothing. At least in our old neighborhood, he was always riding w/ the neighbor girl, Christina, and she kept him in line. I know, I need to relax a little and let him be a kid…. Anyway, Ryne rode ahead and Cal and I walked Junior. Once we got down to the park, there was a Golden Retriever in somebody’s front yard. She didn’t have a tag on her, but she looked well taken care of, and I believe she probably belonged to that house. Anyway, I let her and Junior do their welcome sniff. We then went across the street to the park, and the dog followed Junior over. They actually played! I nearly cried. I was so happy. I haven’t seen Junior act like that since Sara died. Now, mind you,
he’s pretty darn old, so his “play” is not what it used to be, but he was having
a ball. After a while, the other dog started humping Junior, which totally grossed the kids out. I thought it was totally funny. Ah, the old man’s still got it, and he doesn’t have to do the work! Anyway, it was a great way for all of
us to spend time together. It also completely wiped Junior out, which was a good thing. He’s really been losing it lately, and he is driving us all nuts a lot of
the time. (P.S. if that dog is out again tonight, I’ll knock on doors, and if nobody knows who she belongs to, she’s coming home w/ usJ Uh, but don’t tell Brian. He might lock me out.
When we got home, my friend called, and we had an amazing conversation, as
always. I also had 2 micros and a Coors Light during our conversation, so it was almost like we were at a bar together J I was feeling really great after our
talk, and then I had a huge burst of energy. I went to do the dishes, and then my phone rang again. It was another really close friend. 2 phone calls
in one night. This never happens! So, to hell with the dishes, I sat down, and had another phenomenal talk with a great friend. The timing of last night couldn’t have been more perfect. I really have been missing having friends around, something fierce lately.
I woke up in a great mood this morning. Once again, the sun is out. I love it. The weather is really the only thing I like about the Midwest. I grabbed some mix c.d. from a couple of years ago, and cranked it on the way to work. Man, I make good c.d.’s.lol I blasted everything from Miley Cyrus to Michael McDonald, to Pink. I’m praying this mood continues. It feels so
good.
Anyway, I thought I’d do this early today, since I don’t what the day is going to hold. If able, I’ll add more later. I have started the day w/ a smoothie, which felt awesome. However, I am drinking a Pepsi right now. I’m trying to wean myself off of this poison, once again.
Oh, and last, but certainly not least: today is Amy’s birthday. Happy Birthday, my friend. May you be able to enjoy some cake, cupcakes, or whatever today, without feeling the guilt. Much love to you.
~Jen
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