done, or dumbest. This morning one of the boys brought me in biscuits and gravy for breakfast. In my first two years of not eating meat, I would never have touched it. But in this last year of making excuses to eat nearly anything, I would just pick out the sausage from the gravy (Even though the gravy is made out of sausage fat….), I would eat it. It was a nice gesture, and I’ve put it in my fridge, and will take home for the boys. Also, there’s vanilla cake in the kitchen with chocolate frosting…. I also believe one of our suppliers is bringing in pizza for lunch. So, in addition to the food that’s always around here, as the holidays grow closer: it gets much worse. There are 2 of us in the Purchasing Department, and by the time December came, we’d already rec’d a HUGE box of Godiva chocolates, and some large chocolate covered pretzels. The crap will be flowing in soon enough… Ah, and there always seems to be a tub of Andes mints that goes to every purchasing dept, no matter where you work. Those
fuckers are my favorite…. So, there’s a ton of temptation around every corner. But on the other hand, Thank God, I’m starting now. I’m already so fat that I ripped my pants and entered the 220’s, good Lord knows what I’d come out
of December looking like. So, I think it’s actually perfect time. Also, Dr. Fuhrman (author of Eat to Live) is giving a seminar/lunch on Jan. 19th in Chicago. I would feel so awesome going to that thing feeling great about how far I’d come in such a short time. I’d feel like I belonged there. Who knows? Maybe I could inspire the person next to me? Not that I put pressure on myself or anything. But I do know, if I stick to this lifestyle, the weight will fall off.
And I promise you that every single person who eats a clean diet will talk about their poop, as I’m going to do. When I’m eating like shit…there’s no shit coming out. I can go days without. Yesterday, I crapped 4 times. Today, I’ve already crapped twice. And let me tell you, it just comes right out. No wasting time on the pot :) Tell me the truth, that really makes you want to eat a carrot or something right now, doesn’t it?
I did do ½ hour on the recumbent bike last night. I don’t have the manual for
it, so I’m just guessing at the settings. I put it on weight loss and #4. It was ½ hour and 135 calorie burn. That’s not shit, but it’s a start. I was just a tad stiff this morning. I’ll turn it up tonight and see how that goes. I was proud of myself for doing it, because it’s so hard to do any sort of workout once I get home.
I’m finally engulfed in the Christmas spirit. I’ve got Christmas music playing on Pandora, and I wrote out my list (23 ppl…ugh). Damn families, haha. We have lots of nieces and nephews, and we buy them gifts each year. This year, I’m giving them each gift cards. I haven’t been around any of them in a long time, so it would be tough to pick something great out for them, and shipping costs a ton… Plus, they’re at the age where they have fun with a gift card. Okay, clearly I’m still trying to talk myself out of the guilt, but it’s what I’ve got to do this year. Out of everyone, my Mom is usually the hardest to buy for, but I actually came up with something good (I hope) this year. I’m getting her a set of crab crackers and seafood scissors. I’ll do a family calendar, too, and probably some framed pics, but I’m stoked about the gift. I know she doesn’t have them. Being an Alaskan, she’s of course great at cracking crab, but now it will be less messy. Haha.
Okay, I wanted to close today with asking for prayers for our close family friend Dawn Hutchinson (Wrangell friends, you know her, I’m sure). Fucking cancer has really got a hold of her. I ask that you pray for mercy in her remaining time on earth and prayers for her kids, grandson and husband. They are a very close family, and this is very difficult for all of them. Thank you.
6:00 Smoothie (water, spinach, flax seed, banana, and frozen
7:30 Unsweetened Pure Lea tea
9:45 Large red apple
12:30 Footlong Veggie sandwich w/ lite honey mustard, soda water
2:30 Ugh, DIET DR. PEPPER. I was about to fall asleep in my office.
4:25 Bunch of really awesome red grapes
6:45 Bowl of cauliflower soup (see recipe), romaine lettuce salad w/ drizzle of low fat caesar dressing