through all the crap to possibly find something I may not really need. But it was great in that they were super excited about their finds. Brooke and Mady even both got new t.v.'s! My friend Tammi flew in that afternoon, and we went right to see the movie, "The Host." Tammi had turned me on to the book,
which was fantastic, so we were excited to see the movie together. OMG... It turned out to be precious time we'll never get back. At one point, Tammi whispered, "it's just like the book. It took a while to get good." I said, "it got good?" Tammi started laughing and couldn't stop, which started me laughing and I swear it went back and forth for a couple of minutes. Real nice for a quiet movie set in the middle of the desert. Brooke then took us over to my sister Nealy's house for a BBQ. Nealy really went all out. It was a wonderful BBQ, and so very great to see her family. 2 years is way too long... My friend Kathy (H.P.) came over for a while, too. I started to get unbelievably tired. I guess the long trip, couple of beers and food all hit me at once. When H.P. left, I tried to rally. Everyone was having a great time sitting around the fire pit, but I went
out to the couch and fell asleep. Yeah, real nice... All that work to throw me a nice party, and I couldn't stay awake. I felt/feel very bad about that.
Saturday found us equally as busy. Brooke, Tammi, and me met up w/ Haley, and Nealy and her family for lunch. It really was nice to visit with them, when I wasn't as exhausted. I was also able to see Haley's room at the salon she works at. Afterward, we took the kids to Target so Auntie could spoil them rotten.
From there, we headed to H.P.'s birthday party. We stopped at a gas station to grab some beer, and while walking in a pit bull came flying through the parking lot, with a leash dragging behind her. I called her over, she came to me, and I quickly grabbed the leash. She was a very friendly dog and pulling very hard on the leash. At first, I couldn't find anyone to claim her. And I thought shit....Brooke isn't going to be happy about this. Soon, a lady came screaming in saying that the dog had jumped from a moving car. An SUV then came pulling up and two men came charging toward the dog. I thought they were going to beat her, and I thought, oh fuck...they are so not getting this dog. But the guys came over and the dog immediately rolled over onto her back. They then looked her over and were checking out her injuries. She looked pretty good, but she was skinned up good and had a limp. That dog had so much adrenaline running through her. Anyway, it all turned out well I guess. But that short experience with that dog put dogs back on my mind, and it hasn't gone
H.P.'s party was really cool. I had heard plenty about her brother and sister over the years, so it was so nice to finally meet them. Dare I say, they are nearly as cool as her. I had a fantastic time catching up with H.P., and the Brooker and Tammi really bonded. We all had a wonderful time. It was really hard to leave my dear friend and her husband Joe. I miss them so much.
We arrived back at Brooker's riding some good buzzes. We stayed up and chatted for a while, while we hit the leftovers hard. Let me tell you...cold lobster rolls might be the best drunk food ever! We didn't stay up too late, as Tammi and I needed to be up by 4 for our early flight. The plane was light,
so we were able to sit next to each other on the flight over to Seattle. Even though she was crazy tired, she hung out with me for an hour and a half until my flight to Chicago. That's a true friend. All the way around she's a true friend. I'm blown away that she would fly over just to spend time with me. It was so wonderful to spend time with her. It's like hanging out with a therapist. She's crazy, fucking smart!
I got back home Sunday night (I live a couple of hours from the airport), and I immediately fell asleep. The job, the quick trip, all of it just swallowed me whole. I went from that to an absolutely insane week at work. We were on a mini shut-down, so that meant long, stressful hours. Oh yes, in addition to it being the end of month. Great planning... In a nutshell, this work week
sucked. And I mean, really sucked the big dick. I see no light at the end of the tunnel. I know it has to be there, and I'm searching hard to find it. But...I don't see it.
I was the last one to leave on Friday, and I met up with my coworkers at the bar. My intention was only to stay for a very short time. It was a great night, though. It was just one of those super fun nights that you know is going to be
one of the best ones. I think I was there about an hour and a half, and my friend and me were going to order dinner, when she went to the bathroom.
I knew dinner was going to turn into more drinks, and good music was
playing....so I pulled a "Jen." I told one person I was leaving, and I got the hell out of there. I knew if I told any of my friends I was leaving, I'd get talked into
staying. It wouldn't have taken much. haha. I'm so glad I left, though. It was such a long week, I needed to get home and see the family.
Today was really a nice, day. Brian and I had a really nice time together. Lately I've felt disconnected...from just about everything in my life. It's nice that he helped to pull me back in. We made plans to get a dog. He's been fighting me on this, but finally gave in today. Even after he gave in, he was not happy about it, but after a while of looking at adoptable dogs online, he finally got into it. He picked out a 6 month old lab mix. He sure is a cutie! I wanted one that was older, but I realize the compromise he's making, I want him to feel good about what dog we choose. We've done the online application, so now we wait to hear. I imagine they'll call us on Monday to set up a meeting. Very exciting!
We spent the rest of the day in Rockford doing some shopping. We needed a lawnmower, and we were super short on groceries. We were especially lacking on anything healthy. We bought tons of fresh fruits and veggies. I'm ready... I can't tell you how ready I am to get on track... My weight consumes me and makes me very, very sad. I've let me weight steal too much of my thoughts and my joy. I'm the only one that can change this. I pray I have the strength. I so need this... I need to feel alive. It's my fault that I've let myself get this bad. I
have to work hard to get out of it.
Alrighty then... So, I've just turned on True Blood for the first time. I've heard about one of those vampire shows and how it's mostly just hot vampires having sex all the time. Hope this is the one. haha.
Happy weekend everyone,