Well, damn. I shit the bed on the second day. I set myself up for failure by not eating enough the first day. My head was killing me, and my tummy was a mess. The next morning I wasted a bunch of my time by going to an appt w/ the breast surgeon. I drove an hour to get there, and then waited 50 mins for him, for him to spend 2 mins with me. He didn’t even look at the area, which I know he was supposed to do. I was so pissed by then I didn’t even call him out on it. I just wanted out of there. I then spent the next hour and 15 driving to work. I was so pissed that I wasted all that time, energy, stress, gas, work, on that freaking appt. Basically
he told me the calcifications were caused by cysts that had burst and that I
have some overgrowth of something or other, but it’s of no concern.
He then handed me a slip to have another mammogram in 6 months. It set me off…. I didn’t do as bad as I normally would, eating wise, but I did far from
great. I was proud of myself in staying away from the Pepsi, though.
So, I’ve been meeting some of my goals this week. I’ve been getting to bed
early (only now I’m waking up at 4 and unable to get back to sleep….), I’ve
really limited the soda consumption (had 2 this week), made time to reflect on
what’s important to me, etc. I have not worked out, yet. So, I’ve backed myself into a corner. I need to get my 30 mins in a day everyday through Sun. I’m going to stick to it.
Holy moly have I been homesick lately. In a really, really bad way. Part of what got to me yesterday, also, was a wintery mix including snow. I’m not ready for this. It gets way too cold out here. Brian is really homesick, too. I don’t know that I really miss living in Vancouver. I could be happy anywhere in the N.W. It would just be nice to know we had access to family and friends.
I’ve been thinking a lot about Thanksgiving and how I wish we could spend
it with family. It appears that the sale of our Vancouver house fell through.
Because it looked like the sale was going through, I gave my friend a heads up. She panicked a bit, and found another house. So, she’s moving out soon, and I have to figure out what to do with the house. I don’t want it sitting vacant.
I’m responsible for it…. Brian and I just dream of packing up and moving back to the house. Man, I wish he could find work in the N.W. I would give anything just to hug my sisters and friends… I really, really would...
On a positive note, I bought my first IL lottery tix today. I bought them for Karl and me to split, since he gave me the idea. So, maybe my $5 will parlay into a 3M payout for Karl and I to split tonight. We’ve already talked about what vacations we’ll be taking with our families. Feels good to dream!
Oh, and I intentionally don’t talk politics on here…. I am as Liberal is it comes, and very proud of it. Most of my family and friends are Republicans (having grown up in Alaska). The commentary on Facebook lately, has been bugging the hell out of me. The stuff that comes out of some people’s mouths….. So, I am super glad the elections are over, and even more glad that Obama remains our president. Ooh, and happy that WA and CO now allow for recreations marijuana usage. LOL. If I ever move to those states I might have to check it out. I’d probably choke to death, though. I wouldn’t even remember how to do it. But I do like the idea of it :)
So this is the one and only time I’ll be political on this blog. But today’s song is: Dear Mr. President by Pink. She wrote this about W. I find it completely
brilliant. A friend of mine hates it so much, that she killed Pink in f/m/k because of it, even though that’s her favorite singer. Lol Solid gold…
Hope you’re all having a wonderful day!
Jen
6:15 Smoothie (water, spinach, flax seed, banana, frozen blueberries)
9:30
20 oz Diet Coke
12:45
Footlong Veggie sandwich (on wheat, all the veggies and some light honey
mustard)
Dear Mr. President,
Come take a walk with me.
Let's pretend
we're just two people and
You're not better than me.
I'd like to ask you
some questions if we can speak honestly.
What do you feel when you see
all the homeless on the street?
Who do you pray for at night before you go to
sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud?
How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother
has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?
Dear Mr.
President,
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a
lonely boy?
How can you say
No child is left behind?
We're not dumb and
we're not blind.
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road
to hell.
What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights
away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were
gay?
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long
way from whiskey and cocaine.
How do you sleep while the rest of us
cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do
you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye?
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me
tell you 'bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them
away
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard
box
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't
know nothing 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh
How do you
sleep at night?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Dear Mr.
President,
You'd never take a walk with me.
Would
you?
he told me the calcifications were caused by cysts that had burst and that I
have some overgrowth of something or other, but it’s of no concern.
He then handed me a slip to have another mammogram in 6 months. It set me off…. I didn’t do as bad as I normally would, eating wise, but I did far from
great. I was proud of myself in staying away from the Pepsi, though.
So, I’ve been meeting some of my goals this week. I’ve been getting to bed
early (only now I’m waking up at 4 and unable to get back to sleep….), I’ve
really limited the soda consumption (had 2 this week), made time to reflect on
what’s important to me, etc. I have not worked out, yet. So, I’ve backed myself into a corner. I need to get my 30 mins in a day everyday through Sun. I’m going to stick to it.
Holy moly have I been homesick lately. In a really, really bad way. Part of what got to me yesterday, also, was a wintery mix including snow. I’m not ready for this. It gets way too cold out here. Brian is really homesick, too. I don’t know that I really miss living in Vancouver. I could be happy anywhere in the N.W. It would just be nice to know we had access to family and friends.
I’ve been thinking a lot about Thanksgiving and how I wish we could spend
it with family. It appears that the sale of our Vancouver house fell through.
Because it looked like the sale was going through, I gave my friend a heads up. She panicked a bit, and found another house. So, she’s moving out soon, and I have to figure out what to do with the house. I don’t want it sitting vacant.
I’m responsible for it…. Brian and I just dream of packing up and moving back to the house. Man, I wish he could find work in the N.W. I would give anything just to hug my sisters and friends… I really, really would...
On a positive note, I bought my first IL lottery tix today. I bought them for Karl and me to split, since he gave me the idea. So, maybe my $5 will parlay into a 3M payout for Karl and I to split tonight. We’ve already talked about what vacations we’ll be taking with our families. Feels good to dream!
Oh, and I intentionally don’t talk politics on here…. I am as Liberal is it comes, and very proud of it. Most of my family and friends are Republicans (having grown up in Alaska). The commentary on Facebook lately, has been bugging the hell out of me. The stuff that comes out of some people’s mouths….. So, I am super glad the elections are over, and even more glad that Obama remains our president. Ooh, and happy that WA and CO now allow for recreations marijuana usage. LOL. If I ever move to those states I might have to check it out. I’d probably choke to death, though. I wouldn’t even remember how to do it. But I do like the idea of it :)
So this is the one and only time I’ll be political on this blog. But today’s song is: Dear Mr. President by Pink. She wrote this about W. I find it completely
brilliant. A friend of mine hates it so much, that she killed Pink in f/m/k because of it, even though that’s her favorite singer. Lol Solid gold…
Hope you’re all having a wonderful day!
Jen
6:15 Smoothie (water, spinach, flax seed, banana, frozen blueberries)
9:30
20 oz Diet Coke
12:45
Footlong Veggie sandwich (on wheat, all the veggies and some light honey
mustard)
Dear Mr. President,
Come take a walk with me.
Let's pretend
we're just two people and
You're not better than me.
I'd like to ask you
some questions if we can speak honestly.
What do you feel when you see
all the homeless on the street?
Who do you pray for at night before you go to
sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud?
How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother
has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?
Dear Mr.
President,
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a
lonely boy?
How can you say
No child is left behind?
We're not dumb and
we're not blind.
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road
to hell.
What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights
away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were
gay?
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long
way from whiskey and cocaine.
How do you sleep while the rest of us
cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do
you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye?
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me
tell you 'bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them
away
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard
box
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't
know nothing 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh
How do you
sleep at night?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Dear Mr.
President,
You'd never take a walk with me.
Would
you?
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