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Look Away

3/26/2012

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Well, I can’t get into the site to add my entry, so I asked Amy to paste this entry in for me. My work system will let me look at the  site, but then when I sign in to edit it, it goes nowhere.  Now, it could be system restrictions from work here, or it could be the  p.o.s. system I use to post the blog.

 Anyway, maybe it’s for the best that my computer bought
the farm and I can’t post my stupid rants. I’m so badly p.m.s.’ing. 
My head is in a very bad place.   I just came from Walmart, where it took all I had to not start crying  while walking through the aisles.   There’s no reason to cry.   My hormones are way f’d up.   I’m in a terrible mood.   I’ve been like this for a couple of days now.   What a loser.  Why can’t I  get this under control?  I’m not a good wife, parent, or friend, when I’m like this.   I just keep thinking, if I weren’t at work, at least I could bury my head  under the blankets and cry it out or sleep it out.   What I do know, is that what’s absolutely terrible for you when you’re  p.m.s.’ing?  Sugar….  What am I overloading on?   Sugar, along with everything else.   I’m so stupid.   I know  better.  As you can tell, I’m not  in a great place.  I won’t weigh  myself tomorrow, since that’s sure to send me over the edge.  Hopefully tomorrow I’ll wake up feeling better….

 I do hope that you guys are doing well. 
Trust me, it means so much to me that you continue to stick with me, even
when I fail in epic proportions. 
If I weren’t hating myself so much right now, I’d so feel the love :)

Always, 
Jen

4 Comments
Le Ann
3/27/2012 06:21:35 am

JEN!!!! Quit being mean to Jen!!! Can you hear me yelling? Quit calling Jen "stupid" and "loser", because she's not. Let her cry if she wants to, she does not need a reason. It does not mean she is weak and may be how she musters up her strength. In defense of Jen, quit expecting her to have everything under control all of the time. Impossible! Close to f'ing crazy because that would assume you can control those things which
are out of your hands. Jen, stop insulting Jen's ability to be a good wife, parent, and friend.

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BECKY
3/29/2012 03:40:25 am

I second those comments, Le Ann.

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Le Ann
3/27/2012 06:28:09 am

For the love of Jen, quit speaking so harsh to her...hate words...you would not speak that way to a friend or a stranger. Don't tolerate it for yourself. Xoxo
Tomorrow is a new day. Heck, even five minutes ago is over and now is new. Hope you feel better soon.

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Jen
3/29/2012 06:56:49 am

LeAnn, your continued support means so much to me. I admire you so much, and it means the world to me that you are my biggest cheerleader. I'm not always sure what you see in me, but I'm grateful for the positive light you put me in. Love you much, my friend.

Jen

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