I needed to post this picture again to realize my accomplishment. It's so easy to get caught up in the "big picture" of how far I need to go, and how I let myself get this way. But for now, I'm going to look at that 10 lbs of fat (plus 2 oz.) that I've lost, and give it the bird. That is weight I will never see again. I really can't bitch about losing over 10 lbs in 3 weeks. I tell you what. I've fucking earned it. And I'm going to continue to earn it.
I'm handling the whole business of turning 40 much better today. Each day is different, and I don't quite understand why. Maybe today, it's because I can't quit thinking about how bad my mouth hurts, and how swollen I am. It's truly disgusting. I don't know if I feel hungry, b/c I haven't been able to eat much since the surgery yesterday, or if it's just a plain sick to my stomach feeling. It's probably a combination of the both. I just know that I want to eat, but at the same time I don't. It's really making myself eat. I want to do this the right way.
I did have an interview today. I'm quite happy that it was just over the phone, b/c of this swelling. I now have a follow up interview with them on Wed. It's scheduled to last 3 hours. Wow....3 hours... Crazy. I am really, truly intrigued by this job, so hopefully it goes well. I can't let myself get overwhelmed by the fact that, if I get and take this job, we will likely stay here longer. That's just a place I can't even go, yet.
So, I rec'd a package from Mom today. It was a "Sweets jar" along w/ a gourmet pan of brownies... She must've forgotten the journey I'm on, huh? I don't let her read this blog, so it wouldn't surprise me. But really, hopefully she just meant it to be for the boys. It was really thoughtful of her. All 3 boys will be thrilled. I'm sure Brian most of all :) But God help Brian, if he tries to give me chocolate on V-Day!
I hope you guys have had a chance to check out Amy's ETL blog. It gives you a good picture of what it takes for someone to be so fit. It's certainly earned, but I'm sure it's more than worth it. Here's hoping we all get there. I am proud of her, too, for going on this journey again w/ me. Here's to better health for all of us, no matter how little or big we are.
Have a great day,
Jen
Food:
8:15 Very watery smoothie (water, flax seed, banana, spinach, mixed fruit)
11:45 Bowl of split pea soup, plus a soda water.
4:00 Banana and an Herbal Tea
5:30 Can of Veggie Hormel Chili (processed...lots of salt, but low in fat and high in fiber)
7:50 I was starving, but I didn't dare do anything that involved chewing. My mouth still kills me... So, I made a large glass of carrot juice out of my Vitamix. I'd never done that before. Carrot juice isn't my favorite, but it did the job. It also gave me instant energy. I'm so glad that I found I could make the juice at home. It'll save me lots of $, and will be better than the stuff I buy at the store. I use it all the time for soups.
Exercise:
I was going to do the bike, but Brian told me I was crazy. He's right. I really do need to rest again today.
I'm handling the whole business of turning 40 much better today. Each day is different, and I don't quite understand why. Maybe today, it's because I can't quit thinking about how bad my mouth hurts, and how swollen I am. It's truly disgusting. I don't know if I feel hungry, b/c I haven't been able to eat much since the surgery yesterday, or if it's just a plain sick to my stomach feeling. It's probably a combination of the both. I just know that I want to eat, but at the same time I don't. It's really making myself eat. I want to do this the right way.
I did have an interview today. I'm quite happy that it was just over the phone, b/c of this swelling. I now have a follow up interview with them on Wed. It's scheduled to last 3 hours. Wow....3 hours... Crazy. I am really, truly intrigued by this job, so hopefully it goes well. I can't let myself get overwhelmed by the fact that, if I get and take this job, we will likely stay here longer. That's just a place I can't even go, yet.
So, I rec'd a package from Mom today. It was a "Sweets jar" along w/ a gourmet pan of brownies... She must've forgotten the journey I'm on, huh? I don't let her read this blog, so it wouldn't surprise me. But really, hopefully she just meant it to be for the boys. It was really thoughtful of her. All 3 boys will be thrilled. I'm sure Brian most of all :) But God help Brian, if he tries to give me chocolate on V-Day!
I hope you guys have had a chance to check out Amy's ETL blog. It gives you a good picture of what it takes for someone to be so fit. It's certainly earned, but I'm sure it's more than worth it. Here's hoping we all get there. I am proud of her, too, for going on this journey again w/ me. Here's to better health for all of us, no matter how little or big we are.
Have a great day,
Jen
Food:
8:15 Very watery smoothie (water, flax seed, banana, spinach, mixed fruit)
11:45 Bowl of split pea soup, plus a soda water.
4:00 Banana and an Herbal Tea
5:30 Can of Veggie Hormel Chili (processed...lots of salt, but low in fat and high in fiber)
7:50 I was starving, but I didn't dare do anything that involved chewing. My mouth still kills me... So, I made a large glass of carrot juice out of my Vitamix. I'd never done that before. Carrot juice isn't my favorite, but it did the job. It also gave me instant energy. I'm so glad that I found I could make the juice at home. It'll save me lots of $, and will be better than the stuff I buy at the store. I use it all the time for soups.
Exercise:
I was going to do the bike, but Brian told me I was crazy. He's right. I really do need to rest again today.
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