After I got numbed up at the dentist, I was texting my friend about my weight loss,and I totally fucking lost it. It wouldn't bother me so bad, if I weren't about to turn 40. It all just hit me at once. I had to turn my phone off. Anyway, I thought I pulled myself together enough before the dentist returned, but apparently not. He thought I was freaking out about the procedure, but I told him my eyes just water a lot. haha. For fucks sake, when did I turn into the total pussy that I've become?
I did get over the lack of weight loss, though. I saw something on t.v. where they were showing 2 lbs. of fat loss. It puts it into perspective. I just get so overwhelmed that I let this happen to me, and by how far I have to go. I guess it's a battle, I'll have the rest of my life.
Anyway, the mouth surgery wasn't the worst thing ever. But the rest of today, has sucked ass. I'm in a lot of pain. All these hours later, I'm still spitting up blood. Pretty. I've been in bed most of the day, and I'm probably gong to be down for the count here very soon. I was told to eat jello, pudding, and shit like that, but of course I didn't listen (until the end of tonight). Dinner hurt like a mofo... Lesson learned.
Tomorrow will be a better day. I know. Hopefully the swelling will be down, and that should be make all the difference :)
Wow....I really sounded like a Debbie Downer, huh? Sorry about that.
Have a great night!
8:45 Smoothie (water, flax seed, spinach, mixed fruit, banana)
2:00 Small bowl of pea soup
5:30 Small baked potato w/ 1 1/2 tsp Smart Balance Light, peas, and 1/3 cucumber, Soda water
7:50 Chocolate snack pack pudding
30 mins. Biggest Loser on the Wii