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Day 22 Weigh in day....

2/8/2012

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We are officially over the half way point of the 6 week ETL diet.  I feel great that we have done so well.  We really do need to pat ourselves on our backs.  However, there's that dreaded scale.  The scale...has the power to ruin my day, and it really did throw me for a loop this morning.  I had a goal of 5 lbs. for the week (which I realized was tough, but I really worked hard to get there), and I weighed in 2 lbs. 10 oz. lighter this morning.  It really upset me.  It totally tore my morning apart.  After feeling like the total pussy I was acting like, I decided to quit feeling sorry for myself and get a quick workout in before my mouth surgery.

After I got numbed up at the dentist, I was texting my friend about my weight loss,and I totally fucking lost it.  It wouldn't bother me so bad, if I weren't about to turn 40.  It all just hit me at once.  I had to turn my phone off.  Anyway, I thought I pulled myself together enough before the dentist returned, but apparently not.  He thought I was freaking out about the procedure, but I told him my eyes just water a lot.  haha.  For fucks sake, when did I turn into the total pussy that I've become?

I did get over the lack of weight loss, though.  I saw something on t.v. where they were showing 2 lbs. of fat loss.  It puts it into perspective.  I just get so overwhelmed that I let this happen to me, and by how far I have to go.  I guess it's a battle, I'll have the rest of my life.

Anyway, the mouth surgery wasn't the worst thing ever.  But the rest of today, has sucked ass.  I'm in a lot of pain.  All these hours later, I'm still spitting up blood.  Pretty.  I've been in bed most of the day, and I'm probably gong to be down for the count here very soon.  I was told to eat jello, pudding, and shit like that, but of course I didn't listen (until the end of tonight).  Dinner hurt like a mofo...  Lesson learned.

Tomorrow will be a better day.  I know.  Hopefully the swelling will be down, and that should be make all the difference :)

Wow....I really sounded like a Debbie Downer, huh?  Sorry about that.

Have a great night!

Jen

Food:
8:45  Smoothie (water, flax seed, spinach, mixed fruit, banana)
2:00  Small bowl of pea soup
5:30  Small baked potato w/ 1 1/2 tsp Smart Balance Light, peas, and 1/3 cucumber, Soda water
7:50  Chocolate snack pack pudding

Exercise:
30 mins. Biggest Loser on the Wii

3 Comments
Becky
2/8/2012 11:34:22 am

Hi Jen, Just wanted to let you know that I'm one of the chicks out here reading your posts. When I was 39 and just about to turn 40 was the time my gallbladder decided to give up and tell me to fuck off. So when I was 40 was when I had my first ever surgery. I was really freaked out that I was ONLY 40 and couldn't believe I was having SURGERY...OMG. SURGERY that's what old...or hurt...or sick...or broken people have. I thought 40 was the year my body "broke". But I was wrong. After having my gallbladder out, I ended up getting married at 41, buying a house for the first time at 43 and now we've bought some property with many plans for the future...at my ripe, delicious age of 46.

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Becky
2/8/2012 11:45:04 am

...in continuation...what matters is that my husband loves me and I look around and tell myself that I deserve all the good things I've FINALLY got at this age. Just something to think about. p.s. I'm still fat too...but I keep trying to eat better...and just keep on living my life (which I really enjoy). Ok, now I sound like a worn out paperback self help book...but, one last thing...at least you are not Tom Brady and have to listen to your supermodel bird, pecking, hen pecking wifr bitch publically about your job and how your co workers fucked everything up...as if SHE had any control over it or as if anyone wants to hear HER supermodel opinion. So fuck Giz Bunchen!

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Jen
2/9/2012 03:41:02 am

Hi Becky! Thanks for your comments! I loved it. You are right. I do have a lot to look forward to. It's just been a rough couple of years, and ending the rough spell by turning 40, has made me feel like a bit of a...loser. I'll be fine, though. I truly am blessed with my life, and I know this. I need to work on appreciating the wonderful things in my life, even more.

Thanks for following my blog. It means a lot to me, my friend.

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