Honestly, this morning did not have a great start to it. Brian and I had a little arguement, and I had plenty of time to stew in my 55 min commute. I immediately thought of eating poorly and having soda, but thought, how in the hell is that going to make this better in the long term? It's just going to make everything worse. Sounds simple enough, but I nearly never think in terms like that. For me, it was another step in the right direction.
Okay, so this damn laptop just erased a whole section about my work situation. It must be a sign that it was in fact as boring as I thought it was. Essentially, work has become a million times busier. I welcome the change, but it's stressful at the same time. No more playing the "I'm new" card. They're my decisions to make now. :)
Today was a nice treat in that I was able to talk to Mom and Nealy today. Mom was able to let me know of all the comings and goings of my niece Jaynee running for 4th of July Queen. Oh how I wish I were going home for the 4th. Also, a close family friend is getting married on Friday. She's getting married up on Farm Island. I have such fond memories of that place from being a kid. When I was home last, it was so cool to go up there, Penny (bride) and her family have all built cabins up there. I can't think of a cooler place for someone to get married. A river trip and a wedding. Sweet. My Mom also has always had the very coolest friends. I love all of them. I love being around them when I'm home. Anyway, Penny's Mom owns the Bluebird (floathouse), and my Mom and 3 others are staying on the Bluebird for the weekend. I also have great memories of that floathouse. I honestly think it might be Mom's favorite thing on earth to do, hanging out on that thing. So, it's fun to hear about all of the excitement, but I'm also waiting for the 4th of July blues to hit me hard upside the head soon. Several of my friends are heading up. Seeing all of the pics on FB makes me so happy for them, but it also leaves me feeling incredibly sad. Seriously, if I'm not home, the 4th is the hardest holiday of the year for me. I'm sure Tammi and I will be consoling each other on the phone again this year. At least I have that to look forward to. lmao
I took about an hour and a half walk tonight. It was just what I needed I reflected on the phone calls and the good and bad decisions I'd made during the course of the day in regards to my diet. I'm getting there, but I'm not all in, yet. I did much worse today than yesterday. Today I was craving sugar in the worst way (I can still blame my period, as I'm still on the fucking thing. Ooh, let me call it a Cunt. I haven't used that word in a long time. I miss it. :) Anyway, I won't let the Cunt win tomorrow.
Given the way my day started with Brian is surprising that I picked "Ice Cream" as the song to put the lyrics on for. Even though Brian can make me insane sometimes, this song came on while I was walking and I thought about how lucky I am to be married to him. I'm lucky that he has this unwaivering love for me. And I love that I can still hear a love song and think of him 20 years after we got together. Well, gotta wrap up. Cal just got home from Vacation Bible Camp. He's sure to ask all sorts of questions I don't have the answers to. :)
Food:
6:30 Smoothie (water, flax seed, spinach, banana, frozen blueberries)
8:00 Packet of plain oatmeal w/ water
11:45 Egg white sandwich from Subway and 2 cookies..., plus 20 oz Diet Coke
3:30 Piece of cake at work....
6:00 Glass of Green juice
8:15 Small bowl of fruit loops w/ rice milk....
6:30 Hour and a half or so walk
Okay, so this damn laptop just erased a whole section about my work situation. It must be a sign that it was in fact as boring as I thought it was. Essentially, work has become a million times busier. I welcome the change, but it's stressful at the same time. No more playing the "I'm new" card. They're my decisions to make now. :)
Today was a nice treat in that I was able to talk to Mom and Nealy today. Mom was able to let me know of all the comings and goings of my niece Jaynee running for 4th of July Queen. Oh how I wish I were going home for the 4th. Also, a close family friend is getting married on Friday. She's getting married up on Farm Island. I have such fond memories of that place from being a kid. When I was home last, it was so cool to go up there, Penny (bride) and her family have all built cabins up there. I can't think of a cooler place for someone to get married. A river trip and a wedding. Sweet. My Mom also has always had the very coolest friends. I love all of them. I love being around them when I'm home. Anyway, Penny's Mom owns the Bluebird (floathouse), and my Mom and 3 others are staying on the Bluebird for the weekend. I also have great memories of that floathouse. I honestly think it might be Mom's favorite thing on earth to do, hanging out on that thing. So, it's fun to hear about all of the excitement, but I'm also waiting for the 4th of July blues to hit me hard upside the head soon. Several of my friends are heading up. Seeing all of the pics on FB makes me so happy for them, but it also leaves me feeling incredibly sad. Seriously, if I'm not home, the 4th is the hardest holiday of the year for me. I'm sure Tammi and I will be consoling each other on the phone again this year. At least I have that to look forward to. lmao
I took about an hour and a half walk tonight. It was just what I needed I reflected on the phone calls and the good and bad decisions I'd made during the course of the day in regards to my diet. I'm getting there, but I'm not all in, yet. I did much worse today than yesterday. Today I was craving sugar in the worst way (I can still blame my period, as I'm still on the fucking thing. Ooh, let me call it a Cunt. I haven't used that word in a long time. I miss it. :) Anyway, I won't let the Cunt win tomorrow.
Given the way my day started with Brian is surprising that I picked "Ice Cream" as the song to put the lyrics on for. Even though Brian can make me insane sometimes, this song came on while I was walking and I thought about how lucky I am to be married to him. I'm lucky that he has this unwaivering love for me. And I love that I can still hear a love song and think of him 20 years after we got together. Well, gotta wrap up. Cal just got home from Vacation Bible Camp. He's sure to ask all sorts of questions I don't have the answers to. :)
Food:
6:30 Smoothie (water, flax seed, spinach, banana, frozen blueberries)
8:00 Packet of plain oatmeal w/ water
11:45 Egg white sandwich from Subway and 2 cookies..., plus 20 oz Diet Coke
3:30 Piece of cake at work....
6:00 Glass of Green juice
8:15 Small bowl of fruit loops w/ rice milk....
6:30 Hour and a half or so walk
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