Well, I finally watched the season finale of Cougar Town the other night. I don't think I watched but parts of a couple of episodes during the season, but I do love that show. What always makes a great character, is when you can see yourself in them. I'm Jules in a bunch of different ways. I love how indifferent she is to some things, which I can be overly guilty of, how she loves her red wine (even though I only drink it every couple of months or so), but mostly I love how she needs all of her friends around. I nearly died, when she had her friends produce all of the house key necklaces she'd made for them. I think I would love having ppl around like that. Maybe one day :)
Storms have been rolling in here all over the place, in between the stiffling heat. The latest just passed through, so I'm going to try and get a walk in with Brian before the next one comes through. Yesterday, I didn't eat so well, and I had 4 beers through the course of the day. I woke up this morning, deciding to try and take better care of myself today. Instead of Brian's Sunday Morning French Toast, I decided to have a smoothie. I guess it's one good decision at a time which will get me where I want to get: better health. I'm an idiot for destroying my body like I have. Big time idiot. I've felt good this week and want it to continue. I need it to continue. I don't want to be responsible for putting the ppl that love me in a position of pain, if I drop of a heart attack. How fucking selfish and pathetic would that be. I'm really trying to better myself all the way around. It's what we should all do, in our own ways, every single day. This morning, I watched an Alanis M interview. OMG, how I love her. It's like we're connected at the soul. Just too bad she doesn't know it. Anyway, it's like she's speaking for me. In her interviews, in her songs, she says things I think. In this particular interview, she spoke of the shame, and how it's always going to be there, and how she no longer feels like she needs to apologize for it. I really want to be her when I grow up.... She also performed Thank U, which will always be my song.
I hope today brings you much love, comfort, and your "black kitten." Life on this earth is too short. May every moment be something that makes you feel like you love your life. It's yours. As much as I've always wanted. Nobody else can make your life better, or what you want from it. It's up to us, and us only. We determine our futures.