I was hoping to wake up feel awesome today, but this little booger keeps holding on. It’s not so bad, though. The worst part was when I had a huge series of sneezes driving into work this morning. I’ve been so good about tightening up when they’ve hit, but one sneeze got me this morning. The sneeze won. Nothing like starting your day w/ a little pee pee in your panties. Oh but wait, that wasn’t the first
thing that happened. It’s cold
here: very cold. This morning
everything was completely frosted over, including my car. I turned the heat all the way up and turned on the rear defrost. I went in and finished getting the boys ready, came out and hardly anything had melted. I was pissed. It was 5 minutes into my drive that I realized I had my air conditioner on, not my rear defrost. I swear I should be walking around with some metal bracelet that tells people I
shouldn’t be allowed to drive or make decisions for myself.
Recently I’ve been trying to make some sort of list in my head of what I need to do to improve my overall wellbeing. Some things are simple, like not
spending as much time playing games on my phone, but oh how I love that. I love my nightly dates w/ HP and WWF. But I really should be spending my time actually accomplishing things. I’m not burning a lot of calories and I
lay there playing on my phone. Of course, with perfect timing my phone’s dinging at my and it’s H.P. and WWF. We usually don’t play a lot during the
day as our work days keep us pretty busy. But I have to admit, when I go into the game, I’m always stoked when I see it’s her that’s playing. LMAO…. I’d messaged her on there telling her she was making it difficult for me to write about quitting while the games were coming in. She says, “Mission Accomplished!” lol Gotta love her. Anyway, as usual I get off track very
easily. That’s one of the easier things to do. That’s going to be the easiest thing to cut out, but I will miss it the most. I need to figure out how to get the most of my time/health. Some things are going to have to give. My plate gets too stacked a lot of the time. I feel pulled in a lot of directions, but that’s probably my fault. I definitely spread myself too thin.
In all, I need to keep my eye on the prize. The prize being keeping myself happy and healthy, while taking great care of my family and helping them be the same way. My prize is also doing something for a living in which I find fulfillment. But I probably won’t be ready for that until I can find my own
fulfillment in my life. I’m so close. I have so much. I thank God for it every day. I just wish I didn’t let me head and anxiety get in the way of myself so much. I wish I trusted myself more. I wish I trusted OTHERS more. There’s a key right there. It’s hard to accept love from people, when you can’t believe they truly have love for you. I really need to work on that right there. “Yeah, that’s the ticket.” So, yes my self journey continues this week. I really hope to have more answers next week, along with a plan. Yes, a plan for happiness. Lol I am the consummate control freak, that’s for sure.
I heard some great songs driving in this morning, including She’s Tight which I thought was hilarious given the fact that I must not be that tight or I wouldn’t have pissed myself. But shockingly enough I’m coming back to a Pink song. It’s the first song on the c.d., Are We All We Are. I heard Jillian Michaels talking about how it was on her workout playlist and it makes total sense. The song rocks. I have the best video in my head about it. It’s centered
around a Thunderdome (like from the Mad Max movie), and you have all of these different types and sizes in there to work out. It shows the effort, the smiles, the accomplishment, as Pink runs around being the instructor and motivator. It’s really cool. Wish you could live in my head for the duration of the song :)
Hope you all have a wonderful day, even if it is Monday. We’re here. We’re breathing. We’re taking it all in.
~Jen
"Are We All We Are"
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
Cut to now, holy wow
When did everything become such a hell of a mess?
Maybe now, maybe now, can
somebody come and take this off my chest?
I know you think it's not your
problem
I know you think that God will solve them
But if your shit is not
together
It'll never be you and me, plant the seed
Open up and let it
be
We are the people that you'll never get the best of
Not forget the
rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
We've had our fill, we've had enough, we've had it
up here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that
you'll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
Just
sing it loud, until the kids will sing it right back
Are we all we are
Are
we all we are
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
Seven
seconds, seven seconds
That is all the time you got to make your point
My
attention, my attention's like an infant tryna crawl around this joint
I
know we're better than the masses
But we're all followin' our asses
And if
our shit is not together
It'll never be you and me, plant the seed
Open
and let it be
We are the people that you'll never get the best of
Not
forget the rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
We've had our fill, we've had enough,
we've had it up here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the
people that you'll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of, rest of
(Ooohhh)
Just sing it loud, until the kids will sing it right back
Are we
all we are
Are we all we are
Four, that's how many years it took me to
get through the lesson
That I had to do it all on my own
Three, that's how
many Hail Mary's they would pray for me
Thinkin' I was gonna end up all
alone
Two for second chances that you've given me,
Can it be, lucky me,
lucky me, now let's go
One, it's what we are, it's what we are
Are we all
we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you'll never get the
best of
Not forget the rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
We've had our fill, we've
had enough, we've had it up here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you'll never get the best of
Not forget the rest
of, rest of (Ooohhh)
Just sing it loud, until the kids will sing it right
back
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that
you'll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
We've had our fill, we've had enough, we've had it up here
Are we all we
are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you'll never get the best
of
Not forget the rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
Cut to the future, sing it
loud, and take the power back
Are we all we are
Are we all we
are
thing that happened. It’s cold
here: very cold. This morning
everything was completely frosted over, including my car. I turned the heat all the way up and turned on the rear defrost. I went in and finished getting the boys ready, came out and hardly anything had melted. I was pissed. It was 5 minutes into my drive that I realized I had my air conditioner on, not my rear defrost. I swear I should be walking around with some metal bracelet that tells people I
shouldn’t be allowed to drive or make decisions for myself.
Recently I’ve been trying to make some sort of list in my head of what I need to do to improve my overall wellbeing. Some things are simple, like not
spending as much time playing games on my phone, but oh how I love that. I love my nightly dates w/ HP and WWF. But I really should be spending my time actually accomplishing things. I’m not burning a lot of calories and I
lay there playing on my phone. Of course, with perfect timing my phone’s dinging at my and it’s H.P. and WWF. We usually don’t play a lot during the
day as our work days keep us pretty busy. But I have to admit, when I go into the game, I’m always stoked when I see it’s her that’s playing. LMAO…. I’d messaged her on there telling her she was making it difficult for me to write about quitting while the games were coming in. She says, “Mission Accomplished!” lol Gotta love her. Anyway, as usual I get off track very
easily. That’s one of the easier things to do. That’s going to be the easiest thing to cut out, but I will miss it the most. I need to figure out how to get the most of my time/health. Some things are going to have to give. My plate gets too stacked a lot of the time. I feel pulled in a lot of directions, but that’s probably my fault. I definitely spread myself too thin.
In all, I need to keep my eye on the prize. The prize being keeping myself happy and healthy, while taking great care of my family and helping them be the same way. My prize is also doing something for a living in which I find fulfillment. But I probably won’t be ready for that until I can find my own
fulfillment in my life. I’m so close. I have so much. I thank God for it every day. I just wish I didn’t let me head and anxiety get in the way of myself so much. I wish I trusted myself more. I wish I trusted OTHERS more. There’s a key right there. It’s hard to accept love from people, when you can’t believe they truly have love for you. I really need to work on that right there. “Yeah, that’s the ticket.” So, yes my self journey continues this week. I really hope to have more answers next week, along with a plan. Yes, a plan for happiness. Lol I am the consummate control freak, that’s for sure.
I heard some great songs driving in this morning, including She’s Tight which I thought was hilarious given the fact that I must not be that tight or I wouldn’t have pissed myself. But shockingly enough I’m coming back to a Pink song. It’s the first song on the c.d., Are We All We Are. I heard Jillian Michaels talking about how it was on her workout playlist and it makes total sense. The song rocks. I have the best video in my head about it. It’s centered
around a Thunderdome (like from the Mad Max movie), and you have all of these different types and sizes in there to work out. It shows the effort, the smiles, the accomplishment, as Pink runs around being the instructor and motivator. It’s really cool. Wish you could live in my head for the duration of the song :)
Hope you all have a wonderful day, even if it is Monday. We’re here. We’re breathing. We’re taking it all in.
~Jen
"Are We All We Are"
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
Cut to now, holy wow
When did everything become such a hell of a mess?
Maybe now, maybe now, can
somebody come and take this off my chest?
I know you think it's not your
problem
I know you think that God will solve them
But if your shit is not
together
It'll never be you and me, plant the seed
Open up and let it
be
We are the people that you'll never get the best of
Not forget the
rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
We've had our fill, we've had enough, we've had it
up here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that
you'll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
Just
sing it loud, until the kids will sing it right back
Are we all we are
Are
we all we are
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
Seven
seconds, seven seconds
That is all the time you got to make your point
My
attention, my attention's like an infant tryna crawl around this joint
I
know we're better than the masses
But we're all followin' our asses
And if
our shit is not together
It'll never be you and me, plant the seed
Open
and let it be
We are the people that you'll never get the best of
Not
forget the rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
We've had our fill, we've had enough,
we've had it up here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the
people that you'll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of, rest of
(Ooohhh)
Just sing it loud, until the kids will sing it right back
Are we
all we are
Are we all we are
Four, that's how many years it took me to
get through the lesson
That I had to do it all on my own
Three, that's how
many Hail Mary's they would pray for me
Thinkin' I was gonna end up all
alone
Two for second chances that you've given me,
Can it be, lucky me,
lucky me, now let's go
One, it's what we are, it's what we are
Are we all
we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you'll never get the
best of
Not forget the rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
We've had our fill, we've
had enough, we've had it up here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you'll never get the best of
Not forget the rest
of, rest of (Ooohhh)
Just sing it loud, until the kids will sing it right
back
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that
you'll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
We've had our fill, we've had enough, we've had it up here
Are we all we
are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you'll never get the best
of
Not forget the rest of, rest of (Ooohhh)
Cut to the future, sing it
loud, and take the power back
Are we all we are
Are we all we
are
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