Happy Labor Day! One would think that a 3-day holiday wouldn't mean anything to somebody that doesn't work outside the home, but I love it. Brian worked 12 days in a row coming into the weekend (and has still been working from home this weekend), so it's nice to have him home. The kids haven't been in school all that long, but they are also taking full advantage of their time off. Ryne went to a party/sleepover yesterday, and Cal loves having full access to us and the X-Box :) Oh, and this is HUGE....we got a fridge yesterday! I'm very thankful that our friends lent us their mini-fridge for the past month, but it really doesn't hold much. I'm so excited to fill that thing up. We haven't had a freezer, either, so I'm ready to go! I know I need to make huge, huge changes to my life.... I'm gearing up to do the Eat to Live program. I so believe in it. I do wish I had someone to do it with, though. The only time I've successfully completed the 6 weeks, and really made drastic changes to my mind/body was when I did it with a friend. Maybe I'll see if there's a group online or something of people doing it. For me, the support and the talking about it is really helpful in my own journey. I really, really need to do this for me. I worry myself sometimes. I know I need to make really large changes in my life. I've been so self-destructive with the eating. I am a full blown food addict. It's the first thing I think about when I wake up, and it's the last thing I think of when I go to bed. ETL really helps to get rid of those cravings. I can't say that it gets rid of food addiction, because then I just obsess healthy foods and what I can eat. But obviously it's healthier to obsess about what soup to make versus what restaurant I'm going to eat at that day. I have a bit of a head start on it, as it's now been 2 weeks since I've had a regular soda. I'd really cut down on my diet soda consumption, too, but as this week has gone on, I've really abused it. Oh, and I've eaten everything in sight. Seriously, I've been a fucking pig. And get this, my period hasn't come, yet.... I've been cramping for days now. Correlation? I'm sure!
It's mammogram time again on Wed. Of course, there's another lump, so Dr. is sending me in for a diagnostic m. The thing is, I have dense breast tissue, so I'm a little lumpy, and it's hard to see things. This has lead to me having so many mammograms. This is the first time in a few years that I was able to go a year in between, though. I'm less nervous this time than others, but of course I'm still nervous. I'm sure I have more nerves, because I feel so alone out here. Brian always thinks everything is going to be fine. He thinks that about everything, even when things aren't okay. So, he doesn't really understand my fears. But I know how I've treated my body. I know what I've put it through. People so much healthier than me have gotten sick. I've been so lucky. I really do look at it as luck.
We had our Alaska Family fantasy football draft yesterday. What a kick in the pants. Cal just goes nuts for fantasy football. He talks such smack! Ryne opted out of that league this year, as he had the party to go to. Today is our Weekley Family draft, though. The smack talk will be non-stop between the boys today. Brian will be chiming in, too, as he's the defending champ! It's so funny, though. The Arizona Weekley's totally get into it. It really is something that is a fun family thing to do together. There's lots of texts between all of us, all season. I'm not in some of the leagues I've been in previously, this year. I've been in my cousin's wife's family league for many years. The person that runs it got re-married this year, and his new wife wanted to be involved, along with her family. So, it got to be too big, so all non-family people were booted, and husband and wives now have to go in as one team. This was a bummer. I really liked playing in this league. I've enjoyed getting to know Sandy's family. Also, I wasn't invited back to play in the girls league from last year. It's the only league I won last year. I was told the gal was bringing it back with the same group, so I'm not sure what happened. I don't know the gal that runs it very well, so I don't know. It's a bummer. I have several friends in that league. Rejection is such a tough, tough thing for me. Oh, well. I can't control the situation. As much as I wish everyone liked me, it just simply isn't the case. Trust me, I'm well aware of that these days.....
Enough about that. I've recently read, The Fault in our Stars and Gone Girl. Both were good reads, if you're looking for a new book. I also watched The Other Woman the other night. It was actually pretty funny! Leslie Mann always kills it.
I hope this post finds you well and happy. I hope you are full of life. Have a great day!
~Jen
It's mammogram time again on Wed. Of course, there's another lump, so Dr. is sending me in for a diagnostic m. The thing is, I have dense breast tissue, so I'm a little lumpy, and it's hard to see things. This has lead to me having so many mammograms. This is the first time in a few years that I was able to go a year in between, though. I'm less nervous this time than others, but of course I'm still nervous. I'm sure I have more nerves, because I feel so alone out here. Brian always thinks everything is going to be fine. He thinks that about everything, even when things aren't okay. So, he doesn't really understand my fears. But I know how I've treated my body. I know what I've put it through. People so much healthier than me have gotten sick. I've been so lucky. I really do look at it as luck.
We had our Alaska Family fantasy football draft yesterday. What a kick in the pants. Cal just goes nuts for fantasy football. He talks such smack! Ryne opted out of that league this year, as he had the party to go to. Today is our Weekley Family draft, though. The smack talk will be non-stop between the boys today. Brian will be chiming in, too, as he's the defending champ! It's so funny, though. The Arizona Weekley's totally get into it. It really is something that is a fun family thing to do together. There's lots of texts between all of us, all season. I'm not in some of the leagues I've been in previously, this year. I've been in my cousin's wife's family league for many years. The person that runs it got re-married this year, and his new wife wanted to be involved, along with her family. So, it got to be too big, so all non-family people were booted, and husband and wives now have to go in as one team. This was a bummer. I really liked playing in this league. I've enjoyed getting to know Sandy's family. Also, I wasn't invited back to play in the girls league from last year. It's the only league I won last year. I was told the gal was bringing it back with the same group, so I'm not sure what happened. I don't know the gal that runs it very well, so I don't know. It's a bummer. I have several friends in that league. Rejection is such a tough, tough thing for me. Oh, well. I can't control the situation. As much as I wish everyone liked me, it just simply isn't the case. Trust me, I'm well aware of that these days.....
Enough about that. I've recently read, The Fault in our Stars and Gone Girl. Both were good reads, if you're looking for a new book. I also watched The Other Woman the other night. It was actually pretty funny! Leslie Mann always kills it.
I hope this post finds you well and happy. I hope you are full of life. Have a great day!
~Jen
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