With the uncertainty in the workplace lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about what makes me happiest. It’s the usual things, as it is for you…family, friends, my dog. But if I lose my job, how could I spend my days feeling fulfilled, while making a living? Writing certainly wouldn’t pay the bills for me (it's actually an expensive hobby), so I’ve been thinking long and hard. I’ve been in purchasing for so long. I haven’t loved it in a long time. It’s hard for a person whose brain never stops, never stops writing in her head and creating, to sit at a desk all day. That’s reality, though. We all have bills to pay. I have growing boys, and that seems to bring unexpected bills every week. I’ve got a couple of things I’m mulling over, and it’s fun to see a vision of myself who seems fulfilled at the end of each day. A coworker/great friend and I have been discussing our futures in pretty painted detail lately. It’s funny; I can see things and suggest things for him, much better than I can for myself. That’s the way my head has always worked. I wish I could see things more vividly for myself. Maybe, that too, will come with time.
Life has been a little nuts lately, as I’m not a fan of uncertainty. I have to say though, I realize every single day how blessed I am for so many things, even living here in the middle of nowhere right now. I’m blessed to have a group of close friends from work, I didn’t have a year ago. I like that I know where I’m going to be for the next six years (when Caleb graduates). I love that my dog has a bff, and acts like a dog when she’s around her. I fucking love that my good friend got excellent news from the Doctor yesterday. He has a health situation that could be very bad, but he has a best case scenario for his diagnosis. I love the attitude and fight he’s brought to this, just as he does everything he’s passionate about in his life. Really, there are so many things I’m thankful for everyday. Although my job situation is stressing me out, I thanked God this morning, that I have a job that helps us pay our bills and provides security for my family. I think about these things as I’m trying not to get pulled down by the uncertainties and changes that have been going on lately. That’s all any of us can do. We make the best out of what we have. We do what we need to, in order to feel alive. Today, I’m grateful for living out here, amongst people I would’ve never known.
Here’s hoping you embrace those things in your life. Live your day like you’re Holley and Fern in that potato sack (I hope they forgive me for using their pic :)
-Oh, and as always around the 4th-here’s Shooter Jennings (Waylon’s son) with one of my all-time favorite songs. You can see the song unfold perfectly can’t you?