1.5 Biiiilllion Dollars

I don't know if you've heard or not...but the Powerball is now 1.5 billion.  I can't believe nobody's talking about it...  Yes, I've caught the Powerball fever like so many.  Our lunch group decided to go in on some tickets last week, and that grew to a bunch of other co-workers.  For this drawing, we ended up with 48 people from our little company throwing in $5 each (oh, and the bff is in there-I want her to be rich, too). It has been so fun talking with everyone about what we'd do if we won.  I nearly died laughing when a guy I work with (a pretty grumpy guy) was talking about it, and said "You know I'd like to stay here,  you know, for the people."  Before reaching in and grabbing his $5 and talking about quitting.  A group of us went to lunch today and each talked about what we would do.  They're all Illinois girls, and I loved how they all talked about what they'd do to their current house, or buying the lot next to them.  Not one of them talked about moving.  Of course, vacations were on everyone's list, though.  Even if we win, I'm stuck here until Cal graduates.  We can't make the boys move again.  Since I started playing the lottery, the first thing I've always wanted to do if I win, is buy my mom a house on the water.  Before anything, that's the goal.  But the first thing I would do for myself is go to a retreat for a month or so.  I'd love to go somewhere where I can work out my food issues, understand them better, get some sleep, recharge the batteries that seem to be corroded with acid anymore.  The photo above is from Geneen Roth.  Anyway, I looked into one of her one week retreats one time, and it was so expensive it was something I knew I could never do.  But hey....if we hit this Powerball, she's coming where I want to go!  But the bottom line if we win tonight, is that tomorrow will still be the same in so many ways.  I love my life in so many ways.  I won't go to work-I'll let myself sleep and get closer to getting totally past this crud I have, but I'll text the same friends.  I'll keep my dinner date with Lynn (only I'll by buying :) and we'll have dessert!  I'll tell the same people I love them tomorrow, that I tell everyday.  Winning the Powerball won't change everything, but fucking A I'd sure like to make my great life even better! 

As for this crud, I am finally starting to feel better today.  I've been on anti-biotics and cough syrup for a couple of days now.  It felt great to have a bit of my personality back today.  Right now, I'm exhausted, though.  If it weren't for needing to pick Cal up from swim later tonight, my fat ass would be in bed right now.

The new editor is starting on my book tonight!  I'm so excited!!!

Oh, I wanted to give you an update on Sarah.  She came home yesterday!  She needs 24 hour care, and she has a very, very long way to go, but the hope is that being home will help get her where she needs even more quickly.  Please continue to keep her in the prayers.  I really appreciate those of you who have her in them. 

Yesterday was such a huge day in that Sarah came home, and my friend Laura had her baby!  Everett is simply adorable and healthy.  I wish I were healthy so I could go see them in the hospital, but I'll have to wait.  Anyway, congrats to Laura who will undoubtedly make one of the best mothers I know.  She truly is good people.

I'll leave you with If I Had A Million Dollars by Barenaked Ladies.  I know I've put it on here before, but can you really ever hear too much BNL.  And I mean, as they say, If I had a million dollars, I'd be rich.  Those boys are insightful.  Good luck with the Powerball everyone.  May the odds, be ever in your favor!

Jen