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Riding underwear and a dead mouse

8/4/2011

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I slept okay last night...except for when Junior got sick in the middle of the night, and when I had to let him out to go potty.  Once I get up w/ him, I'm up for the next 2 hours.  Poor guy.  It's written all over his face: he hates getting older!
9:15  Took Junior for a one mile walk.  Let me tell you...I wore the wrong underwear....Frankly I prefer not to wear any at all, but w/ certain shorts you need them.  These underwear took a ride up my ass the whole walk.  Anyway, on our little 1 mile loop, there is a "crazy cat house."  There can be a dozen cats outside this friggin house at any one time.  This morning, there was a cat lying on top of a mouse, that was struggling to get free.  I got the cat to get off of the mouse, but it looks like he had some goop all over the mouse's (is that even a word?) eyes, and one of his poor little legs was unusable.  I waited so the little guy could run free, but he was really struggling and not getting far.  He wasn't going to make it.  So, I decided the humane thing to do was to leave so the cat could finish him off.  I felt so freakin' bad, but I didn't know what else to do.
10:00  Chocolate Smoothie (see recipe)  I loooooove these, but I try to only drink them a couple of times a week, as they have more calories than my typical breakfasts.
10:30  Caffeine free Diet Coke-aka heroin
12:15  Thin whole wheat bagel w/ little bit of peanut butter.  1/2 cucumber
4:00   2  small boxes of Corn Pops w/ rice milk.  I totally shit the bed here.  I knew I screwed myself when I went into town with the boys, after eating such a tiny lunch.
6:15  Was supposed to be "Pasta Jumble," but I was lacking a bunch of the ingredients, so I took the principle of the thing and made a type of goulash (see recipe).  Brian had 3 bowls!  Ryne like it, and of course, Cal didn't.  Cal is a crazy picky eater.  I supposed some of it has to do with his sensory issues.
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Asha by Gosh
8/4/2011 04:57:56 am

Jen, you are an inspiration. I like you struggle with esteem issues that contribute to my lovely emotional eating habits. It sounds to me like if you were up front with that hubby of yours he would probably support you in every way shape and form. Although, I do get why you aren't including him...it's a fear of failure I'm guessing.

I have a fear of disappointing others and having them leave (that includes my kids, family, friends, men, etc). I can thank my fine parents for the abandonment issues, but I can't blame them forever. I'm working on the letting go thing. I find myself keeping people at a distance more and more because my choices tend to be those that are more about making them happy and forgetting about myself and sometimes my choices aren't good ones. Okay, enough rambling about myself....i'm supposed to be encouraging you:-)

So Jen, you have made the first step it looks like. You are taking care of you by doing this. You don't even realize it, but you will be helping any of the rest of us that want to take the steps you are taking. Your courage is amazing and I'm grateful.

One thing I see is you aren't eating much. I don't know if Jillian's book concentrates much on that, but you have to get @ a minimum 1200 calories per day and that's still way low for most of us. Just be careful because as long as you're eating as clean as you are you will be okay. If you don't get enough calories that's when you don't feel energetic and your sleep also suffers. The more fiber too the more full you will feel.

These are only things I have learned through my weight fluctuation issues. I'm certainly no skinny mini. A good book might be The Eat Clean Diet cook book by Tosca Reno. She has a vegan section and some of the recipes are pretty darn good (yep I have the book).

I've probably rambled on enough, but I want you to know that I'll be trying hard to do this with you...especially while preparing for doing the Walk for the Cure with Fawn in September. I think it will help.

Thanks for doing this. You rock girl and you can do this...it will become a lifestyle change for you and as you continue to take care of you I think it will get easier. Remember that you ARE a good mom, a good wife, and an awesome friend.

Love ya,
Asha




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Kara Carey
8/4/2011 06:43:35 am

Jen, You are one of my BFF's since we were young. You are a TRUE and LOYAL friend ALWAYS!!!! I know you are always there for me whenever i need a friend. I know you are one friend i can ALWAYS COUNT ON no matter what the situation is. I admire your strength and honestly and look forward to following you along the way via this website. I think it takes one hell of a woman to just take the bull by the horns and getter' done so to speak! You are a wonderful mom and it shows by how much your kids love you. You are a remarkable wife! You keep your chin up and know that you are NOT ALONE in this journey. I too know the feeling of not feeling good with the weight situation. I have fluctuated in my weight from 210 down to 185 the past few years. You are a HUGE inspiration to me and I too will do my best to keep you encouraged to meet your goal and i look to you to get me motivated to lose weight with you - even though we are miles apart - we can keep in touch and hold each other accountable! Thank you for doing this... you are just what i needed to kick it into gear! So let's just get this done... let's think of it as winning SE tournament all over again - first game - 10 pounds to lose! LOL.... ok I'm on my way and keep it up - I'm miles away but i'm always here for you! Love ya girl and you have the desire and will to do this - so stay strong and just do it! As for not telling Brian, I'm sure he would support you more than you think - maybe in time you can be more open with him and there's nothing wrong with you asking him to really give you more support! You certainly deserve it! Love ya girlfriend! Kara

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Staci
8/5/2011 03:17:21 pm

How is this for accountability? I weigh myself daily just to be on top of trends or slow/stop any gains. I log my weight on a calendar along with my exercise. I have learned that If I walk/run at least 14 miles a week, plus clean eating I WILL lose weight. Erik is able to see my weight and is totally supportive. It's not so much that he wants me to lose weight, but he says when I eat right and exercise I am happier and seem more confident to him. It is especially good for me to surround myself with healthy people. It really sucked when I realized that alcohol prevents me from losing weight. Oh well, life goes on. I appreciate you.

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